The Shadow Club by Neal Shusterman
THE SHADOW CLUB
NEAL SHUSTERMAN
THE SHADOW CLUB
"This is a provocative novel. . . . The plot is ingeniously simple and the course of events compelling. It will leave readers thinking." —Booklist, starred review
"The mystery is well-constructed, with a logical yet unexpected finale that provides moral weight as well as plot satisfaction." —BCCB
"This engrossing book portrays how easily 'good' kids can lose control. Shusterman vividly conveys the overwhelming qualities of violent emotions and chillingly shows how a group of nice people can become a vengeful mob." —Publishers Weekly
"Powerful. Every reader who has felt resentment will identify with these young people, their anger, and their terror." —Kirkus Reviews
I suppose you want to know all about us, don't you? All the nasty, horrible details about the vicious things we did. . . .
Well, it wasn't like that—not to us anyway—not at first. Things just got carried away, that's all We were good kids—I mean really good kids. Not a single kid in the Shadow Club had ever done anything bad. Not at first.
I still don't know how it all happened. We just lost control—too many bad feelings have a way of spinning together into one killer tornado, and none of us in the Shadow Club knew how to stop it, or for that matter, where it was going.
I haven't told anyone the whole story yet. I don't like to talk about it, because it scares me. I get nightmares. When I was little, I got nightmares about werewolves, or dumb things like that. Now I get nightmares about myself.
.
To my parents
in whose eyes I was never second best,
and to Elaine,
with whom I've come full circle.
Contents
Title Page
Dedication
Prologue
Stupid - Talk
Austin Pace
The Fire and the Agony
The Charter at Stonehenge
Spiders and Snakes
Celebration at Stonehenge
Tyson McGaw
The Best of Friends
Someone’s Idea of a Joke
Greene’s Eye
What Ralphy Said
The Next Victim
The Inquisition
What Happened to Randall
The Confession
Fire and Water
The Burning of the Charter
Epilogue
THE
SHADOW CLUB
Prologue
I SUPPOSE YOU want to know all about us, don't you? All the nasty, horrible details about the vicious things we did. How we planned the accidents, how we plotted against everyone who got in our way. That's what you want to hear, isn't it?
Well, it wasn't like that—not to us anyway—not at first. Things just got carried away, that's all. We were all good kids—I mean really good kids. Not a single kid in the Shadow Club had ever done anything bad and there wasn't a single delinquent in the bunch. Not at first.
I still don't know how it all happened. We just lost control, ya know—too many bad feelings have a way of spinning together into one killer tornado, and none of us in the Shadow Club knew how to stop it, or for that matter, where it was going.
I haven't told anyone the whole story yet. I don't like to talk about it, because it scares me. I get nightmares. When I was little, I got nightmares about werewolves, or dumbthings like that. Now I get nightmares about myself. And since it happened, I've been catching other kids looking at me funny, like I'm a different person now, like I'm that monster I dream about. But it's not true! And I don't know how to prove to them that I'm still me! I'm just a whole lot smarter now, that's all.
Like I said, I haven't told anyone, but I can't keep it in anymore. If I do, I'll go crazy.
So listen closely. I'll tell you all there is to know about the Shadow Club . . . but you have to promise you won't hate me when I'm done.
I'll begin long before any of the bad stuff happened, before I spied on Tyson McGaw—even before the first meeting. Way back when that tornado wasn't even a breeze, just a bunch of thoughts kept secretly in the back of our minds, thoughts we were sure no one else could understand.
It all started that day in the graveyard. . . .
Stupid - Talk
IT WAS THE strangest place for anyone to have a wedding, and whoever came up with the idea of having weddings there must have had a very sick mind. This town has to be the only town in the history of the world that has weddings in a cemetery.
Anyway, it was the first day of September, and we all stood there in the rose garden at the very edge of Shady Bluff Memorial Park, sipping punch from tiny cups and stuffing our faces with little cheese hors d'oeuvres, waiting for the wedding to start. Cheryl's mom was getting married.
Cheryl had been nervously chewing the lip of her cup until there was none of it left, and checking to see if her hair was still in place. She had good reason to be nervous, since it was her mother's wedding, and she was about to have a new father, but that wasn't the only reason she was nervous.
"I just know they're going to ask me to sing," Cheryl mumbled under her breath.
"Huh?" said Randall, her younger brother.
"Sing. They're going to ask me to sing."
"Don't be dumb," he said. "People don't sing in cemeteries." (Which was a good point.)
"No, I mean later," said Cheryl, "at the house, during the party. They always ask me to sing."
Randall rolled his eyeballs so far back you could almost hear them turning in his head. "Like when?"
Cheryl thought for a moment, then a smirk spread over her face.
"Like at your birthday party!" she said triumphantly. She looked at me, but I knew better than to stick my nose in this one. My nose has been whacked too many times for being where it never should have been in the first place. This was their argument.
"Yeah, well guess what?" said Randall, "I got news for you—nobody asked you. You got up there and sang anyway, all on your lonesome."
"That's not true," said Cheryl. "Somebody asked me."
"Who?"
"I don't remember who, that doesn't matter. The point is that I was asked . . . and as I recall, everyone clapped."
"They clapped because I blew out the candles," said Randall.
"Well, that, too . . . but they liked the way I led 'Happy Birthday.' I kept them all in tune."
"You were louder than everyone else, you mean—andyou didn't have to stand on a chair. That was embarrassing."
"Someone has to lead!" demanded Cheryl. "It's like the national anthem at a ball game. Someone has to lead it, or everyone sings at the wrong time, out of tune, and it sounds lousy!"
It was about this time that I forced my ears closed and tuned the two of them out. True, Cheryl and Randall were my friends, but there's only so much stupid-talk a human brain can listen to—and when Cheryl and Randall got started, they could stupid-talk each other till their mouths wore out. I turned off my brain whenever my parents did it, and I turned off my brain whenever my friends did it.
I was closer friends with Cheryl than I was with Randall. In fact, you could say that Cheryl was my best friend. She had been my best friend all of my life, or as far back as I could remember; back to the days when it was all right for little boys to play with little girls, because we didn't really know the difference, and through the time when everyone would make fun of us because boys were supposed to do boys' things with boys, and girls were supposed to do girls' things with girls. Now, no one much bothered us, because at fourteen everyone has more sense. Besides, people envied us, because everyone was so sure we were a lot more than we really were, if you know what I mean. Other kids always think that kind of thing if you're friends with a gir
Anyway, neither Cheryl nor Randall knew when to shutup, or when to give up, since they were always so convinced that they were right. They argued like lawyers, which is something they both got from their mother, who is a lawyer. This time, however, I knew for a fact that Randall was right. No one had asked Cheryl to sing at that party. The only person that was asked to sing was Cheryl's cousin Rebecca, and luckily, Cheryl was out back when it happened, or else she would have been in an evil mood for the rest of the day. Cheryl hated Rebecca about as much as I hated Austin Pace . . . but I'll leave that for later.
"You just watch," said Cheryl. "Mom will come over to me and ask me to sing when she and Paul have their first dance. I'll bet you."
"You're on," said Randall. "I'd bet you money, but I wouldn't want to make you feel too bad."
"Fine. It's settled then," I said, just to shut them up. "The winner gets no money, but will get to hang their victory over the other person's head for the rest of their life, all right?"
"Fine," they both said.
"Good. Now both of you shut up, because it looks like they're going to start."
In a few minutes Randall and Cheryl left to join the bridal party, which would come down the aisle along with the bride. My parents found me and we went to sit in the rows of chairs by the little vine-covered gazebo in which the wedding would take place.
The air was still warm that day, as if it had forgotten autumn was coming pretty soon—but the trees remembered. You could tell that they were just about ready to start turning colors. It was a nice day for a wedding.
Cheryl came down the aisle with the rest of the bridesmaids. I knew she hated all that makeup and hair spray, but I have to admit, I'd never seen her look so beautiful—even more beautiful than her mother did in her wedding dress. Of course I couldn't tell Cheryl that; she tended to punch people who told her she looked beautiful.
As the ceremony went on, I saw Cheryl's cousin Rebecca on the other side of the aisle. She sat there like a little princess, all four feet of her, pretending to be the cutest thing on earth, like she was taking Shirley Temple lessons or something. Even just sitting, you could sense that air about her. Like she was the one in Cheryl's family that everyone adored, and she knew it. I could see why Cheryl resented her; who wouldn't? All that pretend sweetness all rolled up into one tiny body. What made it even more irksome for Cheryl was that next week Rebecca would make her grand entrance into our junior high, and would, as always, set out to top anything Cheryl had ever done.
Well, the wedding went fine, and so did the first half of the party back in Cheryl's backyard. It was when the band started its second set that things started to change.
It seemed that Cheryl was having such a great time,dancing and jabbering at anyone who had an ear, that she forgot all about her little bet with Randall back in the old graveyard rose garden. It could have gone forgotten, and no one, not even Randall, would have cared . . . but something happened.
Cheryl and I were dancing quite a lot, since we both liked to dance, and were tiring ourselves out, when the lead singer ended the song and began talking.
"How we doin' out there?" he asked the guests. A few people mumbled "Good." "Great!" said the lead singer. "Now, we have a very special request. I understand there is a young lady here who is quite a singer . . ."
"I knew it!" said Cheryl, and she cleared her throat half a dozen times.
". . . and we have a very special request from the bride for her to come up here and give us a song . . ." continued the singer.
Cheryl cracked her knuckles, which made me wince, and cleared her throat again. Randall, from across the yard, caught her gaze, amazed that his sister was actually going to win.
". . . so, maybe if we give her a great big hand," continued the singer, "she'll come on up and sing for us!"
Cheryl bit her lip and leaned forward, sure that the eyes of the whole world were looking at her.
The singer put on a big smile. "Let's hear it for . . . Rebecca!"
Cheryl took one step forward and then it hit her. You could almost hear her jaw drop open. People began to applaud, and Randall began to laugh. Then he turned to Cheryl, scratched his head, and gave her his best monkey impersonation. Cheryl ignored him and turned to me. For a split second she had that look in her eye that you only see in movies about people possessed by the devil, but the look faded. She sighed and said, "Well, that just figures, doesn't it?"
"You should go up there and sing with her," I said.
"Nope," said Cheryl, "I wasn't asked. Darned if I'm gonna make a fool of myself like she's going to."
Rebecca stepped onto the patio, where the band was. She was all of twelve, but looked more like she was nine. Even younger with the cutesy dress she was wearing. Shirley Temple lessons.
The band began to play the requested song, and Rebecca began to pretend she was a rock star. Personally, I thought that Cheryl sang a little bit better, but what do I know?
Needless to say, Cheryl and I didn't dance. We sat down at a table. I could feel all the food and dancing already taking its toll on my stomach. Or maybe it was just the song.
"You know, the second-best never get any credit," said Cheryl. "Not even from their parents."
"You're not second-best," I offered.
"I am. They're right, she does sing better than me." Cheryl played with a fork on somebody else's dessert platesomething to the band, they nodded and started up again— another big dance number. Rebecca began to bounce around again, and strut across the stage, all proud, sticking her chest out (which was wishful thinking on her part, if you know what I mean). Then Cheryl and I watched some old relative toss flowers at Rebecca from the floral centerpieces on the tables, and she put one behind her ear.
"I think I'm going to be sick," said Cheryl as we watched a scene that was beginning to resemble a freak show.
Austin Pace
IN OUR TOWN, high school doesn't start in ninth grade. A hundred years ago, some founding father decided that seventh through ninth grades belonged in junior high school, and no one's bothered to change it since. It was the first day of the last year of junior high, and Austin was already at it. He was even early that morning, jogging around the track. Coach Shuler hadn't even come in yet and there was Austin, in last year's gym shorts, running in circles for the whole world to see. I am certain he was doing it for that reason—so the whole school could walk by and say, "Wow, Austin's really dedicated, isn't he?"
Well, I was dedicated, too, but I didn't flaunt it in public.
Austin is good at a large number of things. Good enough for people to notice, but not enough to be labeled "a brain," or "a jock," or "a nerd," or anything. In short, he's what every kid wants to be, or at least what I always wanted to be. He is, in his own way, perfection on two feet, and he knowsit. I hated him. He didn't know that. To him I was just one of his many friends. If he had been a year or two older than me, he might have been someone I looked up to, can you believe that? He loves it when younger kids look up to him. I'm not younger, though; I'm three months older than him. And he never really treated me like a friend—or even like an equal. He kind of treated me like a worm—or at least tried to make me feel like one.
I used to think it was because I was the one who started up that now infamous nickname that still plagued his existence:
L'Austin Space.
The name stuck to him like Velcro, and he could never peel it off. Yeah, I used to think that was why he treated me like he did, but that wasn't it. It ran deeper and stronger than that. You see, unlike everyone else, I was the only one who came close to being a threat to him.
Like I said, Austin's good in everything, but there was only one thing that he was out-and-out great at. He could run. As a kid everyone knew he was fast. He beat everyone he ever challenged—even kids older than him—for as long as I can remember.
And, for as long as I can remember, I was second fastest; always the second-best runner. It wouldn't have been so bad being seco
But I could run, and when you're a fast runner there's nothing like that feeling as you pick up speed, actually feel your body accelerate, and you realize that the wind isn't a wind at all, it's just you cutting through the still air like a bullet. There's nothing like that feeling when you know that this is what you do well, and nobody can take it away.
Nobody but L'Austin Space.
He took it away real good—and not so much by beating me, but by purposely making me feel like I wasn't worth a thing. He knew exactly what to say to squash me beneath his big toe. Things like, "Maybe it's your running shoes that made you slow," or "Maybe next year your legs will grow longer and you'll have a fighting chance," or maybe he would just look at me with that silent gloat in his smile after beating me in yet another race.
I don't know why, but it seemed that Coach Shuler always put us in the same races. We would take first and second, but when Austin and I were racing, there were no places, only winner and loser, and I was always, without exception, the loser.
Once I was the best: that one year when Austin's father, who is a professor, took the whole family traipsing around South America for a whole year. It was in seventh grade— first year on the junior high school team—that I finally got to see that finish-line ribbon, to feel it pull across my chest as I crossed the line. I was hot then, the hero, popular— everything I could have wanted.