A Burnt-Out Case by Graham Greene
"I don't mean Parkinson. It's his job. I mean Rycker. I have never spoken to Rycker about Love or God."
"He told me that he once had an interesting discussion with you."
"Never. There was no discussion. All the talking, I assure you, was done by him."
Father Thomas looked down at the newspaper cutting. He said, "There's to be a second article, it appears, in a week's time. It says here, 'Next Sunday. A Saint's Past. Redemption by Suffering. The Leper Lost in the Jungle.' That will be Deo Gratias I imagine," Father Thomas said. "There's also a photograph of the Englishman talking to Rycker."
"Give it to me." Querry tore the paper into pieces and dropped them on the floor. He said, "Is the road open?"
"It was when I left Luc. Why?"
"I'm going to take a truck then."
"Where to?"
"To have a word with Rycker. Can't you see, father, that I must silence him? This mustn't go on. I'm fighting for my life."
"Your life?"
"My life here. It's all I have." He sat wearily down on the bed. He said, "I've come a long way. There's nowhere else for me to go if I leave here."
Father Thomas said, "For a good man fame is always a problem."
"But, father, I'm not a good man. Can't you believe me? Must you too twist everything like Rycker and that man? I had no good motive in coming here. I am looking after myself as I have always done, but surely even a selfish man has the right to a little happiness?"
"You have a truly wonderful quality of humility," Father Thomas said.
PART VI
CHAPTER ONE
Marie Rycker stopped her reading of The Imitation of Christ as soon as she saw that her husband was asleep, but she was afraid to move in case she might wake him, and of course there was always the possibility of a trap. She could imagine how he would reproach her, "Could you not watch by me one hour?" for her husband was not afraid to carry imitation to great lengths. The hollow face was turned away from her so that she could not see his eyes. She thought that so long as he was ill she need not tell him her news, for one had no duty to give such unwelcome news as hers to a sick man. Through the net of the window there blew in the smell of stale margarine which she would always associate with marriage, and from where she sat she could see the corner of the engine-house, where they were feeding the ovens with the husks.
She felt ashamed of her fear and boredom and nausea. She had been bred a colon and she knew very well that this was not how a colon ought to behave. Her father had represented the same company as her husband, in a different, a roving capacity, but because his wife was delicate he had sent her home to Europe before his child's birth. Her mother had fought to stay with him, for she was a true colon, and in her turn the daughter of a colon. The word spoken in Europe so disparagingly was a badge of honour to them. Even in Europe on leave they lived in groups, went to the same restaurants and café-bars kept by former colons and took villas for the season at the same watering-places. Wives waited among the potted palms for their husbands to return from the land of palms; they played bridge and read aloud to each other their husbands' letters, which contained the gossip of the colony. The letters bore bright postage stamps of beasts and birds and flowers and the postmarks of exotic places. Marie began to collect them at six, but she always preserved the envelopes and the postmarks as well, so that she had to keep them in a box instead of an album. One of the postmarks was Luc. She did not foresee that one day she would begin to know Luc better than she knew the rue de Namur.
With the tenderness that came from a sense of guilt she wiped Rycker's face with a handkerchief soaked in eau-decologne, even at the risk of waking him. She knew that she was a false colon. It was like betraying one's country—all the worse because one's country was so remote and so maligned.
One of the labourers came out of the shed to make water against the wall. When he turned back he saw her watching him and they stared across the few yards at each other, but they were like people watching with telescopes over an immense distance. She remembered a breakfast, with the pale European sun on the water outside and bathers going in for an early dip, and her father teaching her the Mongo for "bread" and "coffee" and "jam". They were still the only three words in Mongo that she knew. But it was not enough to say coffee and bread and jam to the man outside. They had no means of communication: she couldn't even curse him, as her father or her husband could have done, in words that he understood. He turned and went into the shed and again she felt the loneliness of her treachery to this country of colons. She wanted to apologise to her old father at home; she couldn't blame him for the postmarks and the stamps. Her mother had yearned to remain with him. She had not realised how fortunate her weakness was. Rycker opened his eyes and said, "What time is it?"
"I think it's about three o'clock."
He was asleep again before he could have heard her reply, and she sat on. In the yard a lorry backed towards the shed. It was piled high with nuts for the presses and the ovens; they were like dried and withered heads, the product of a savage massacre. She tried to read, but the Imitation of Christ could not hold her attention. Once a month she received a copy of Marie-Chantal, but she had to read the serial in secret when Rycker was occupied, for he despised what he called women's fiction and spoke critically of daydreams. What other resources had she than dreams? They were a form of hope, but she hid them from him like a member of the Resistance used to hide his pill of cyanide. She refused to believe that this was the end, growing old in solitude with her husband and the smell of margarine and the black faces and the scrap-metal, in the heat and the humidity. She awaited day by day some radio-signal which would announce the hour of liberation. Sometimes she thought that there were no lengths to which she would not go for the sake of liberation.
Marie-Chantal came by surface-mail; it was always two months out-of-date, but that hardly mattered, since the serial story, as much as any piece of literature, had eternal values. In the story she was reading now a girl in the Salle Privée at Monte Carlo had placed 12,000 francs, the last money she had in the world, upon the figure 17, but a hand had reached over her shoulder while the ball ran and shifted her tokens to 19. Then the 19 socket caught the ball and she turned to see who her benefactor could be... but she would have to wait another three weeks before she discovered his identity. He was approaching her now down the West African coast, by mail-boat, but even when he arrived at Matadi, there was still the long river-journey ahead of him. The dogs began barking in the yard and Rycker woke.
"See who it is," he said, "but keep him away." She heard a car draw up. It was probably the representative of one of the two rival breweries. Each man made the tour of the out-stations three times a year and gave a party to the local chief and the villagers with his brand of beer gratis for everyone. In some mysterious way it was supposed to aid consumption.
They were shovelling the dried heads out of the camion when she came into the yard. Two men sat in a small Peugeot truck. One of them was African, but she couldn't see who the other was because the sun on the windshield dazzled her, but she heard him say, "What I have to do here should take no time at all. We will reach Luc by ten." She came to the door of the car and saw that it was Querry. She recalled the shameful scene weeks before when she had run to her car in tears. Afterwards she had spent the night by the roadside bitten by mosquitoes rather than face another human being who might despise her husband too.
She thought gratefully, 'He has come of his own accord. What he said was just a passing mood. It was his cafard which spoke, not he.' She wanted to go in and see her husband and tell him, but then she remembered that he had told her, "Keep him away."
Querry climbed out of the truck and she saw that the boy with him was one of the mutilés from the leproserie. She said to Querry, "You've come to call on us? My husband will be so glad..."
"I am on my way to Luc," Querry said, "but I want to have a word with M. Rycker first." There was something in his expression which recalled her hu
She said, "He is ill. I'm afraid you can't see him."
"I must. I have been three days on the road from the leproserie..."
"You will have to tell me." He stood by the door of the truck. She said, "Can't you give me your message?"
"I can hardly strike a woman," Querry said. A sudden rictus round the mouth startled her. Perhaps he was trying to soften the phrase with a smile, but it made his face all the uglier.
"Is that your message?"
"More or less," Querry said.
"Then you'd better come inside." She walked slowly away without looking back. He seemed to her like an armed savage from whom she must disguise her fear.
When she reached the house she would be safe. Violence in their class always happened in the open air; it was restrained by sofas and bric-a-brac. When she passed through the door she was tempted to escape to her room, leaving the sick man at Querry's mercy, but she steeled herself by the thought of what Rycker might say to her when he had gone, and with no more than a glance down the passage where safety lay she went to the verandah and heard Querry's steps following behind.
When she reached the verandah she put on the voice of a hostess as she might have done a clean frock. She said, "Can I get you something to drink?"
"It's a little early. Is your husband really sick?"
"Of course he is. I told you. The mosquitoes are bad here. We are too close to water. He hadn't been taking his paludrin. I don't know why. You know he has moods."
"I suppose it was here that Parkinson got his fever?"
"Parkinson?"
"The English journalist."
"That man," she said with distaste. "Is he still around?"
"I don't know. You were the last people to see him. After your husband had put him on my track."
"I am sorry if he troubled you. I wouldn't answer any of his questions."
Querry said, "I had made it quite clear to your husband that I had come here to be private. He forced himself on me in Luc. He sent you out to the leproserie after me. He sent Parkinson. He has been spreading grotesque stories about me in the town. Now there's this newspaper article and another one is threatened. I have come to tell your husband that this persecution has got to stop."
"Persecution?"
"Have you another name for it?"
"You don't understand. My husband was excited by your coming here. At finding you. There are not so many people he can talk to about what interests him. He's very alone." She was looking across at the river and the winding-gear of the ferry and the forest on the other side. "When he's excited by something he wants to possess it. Like a child."
"I have never cared for children."
"It's the only young thing about him," she said, the words coming quickly and unintentionally out, like the spurt from a wound.
He said, "Can't you persuade him to stop talking about me?"
"I have no influence. He doesn't listen to me. After all why should he?"
"If he loves you..."
"I don't know whether he does. He says sometimes that he only loves God."
"Then I must speak to him myself. A touch of fever is not going to stop him hearing what I have to say." He added, "I'm not sure of his room, but there aren't many in this house. I can find it."
"No. Please no. He'll think it's my fault. He'll be angry. I don't want him angry. I've got something to tell him. I can't if he's angry. It's ghastly enough as it is."
"What's ghastly?"
She looked at him with an expression of despair. Tears formed in her eyes and began to drip gracelessly like sweat. She said, "I think I have a baby on the way."
"But I thought women usually liked..."
"He doesn't want one. But he wouldn't allow me to be safe."
"Have you seen a doctor?"
"No. There's been no excuse for me to go to Luc, and we've only the one car. I didn't want him to be suspicious. He usually wants to know after a time if everything's all right."
"Hasn't he asked you?"
"I think he's forgotten that we did anything since the time before."
He was moved unwillingly by her humility. She was very young and surely she was pretty enough, yet it seemed never to occur to her that a man ought not to forget such an act. She said, as if that explained everything, "It was after the Governor's cocktail party."
"Are you sure about it?"
"I've missed twice."
"My dear, in this climate that often happens." He said, "I advise you—what's your name?"
"Marie." It was the commonest woman's name of all, but it sounded to him like a warning.
"Yes," she said eagerly, "you advise me...?"
"Not to tell your husband yet. We must find some excuse for you to go to Luc and see the doctor. But don't worry too much. Don't you want the child?"
"What would be the use of wanting it if he doesn't?"
"I would take you in with me now—if we could find you an excuse."
"If anybody can persuade him, you can. He admires you so much."
"I have some medicines to pick up for Doctor Colin at the hospital, and I was going to buy some surprise provisions for the fathers too, champagne for when the rooftree goes up. But I wouldn't be able to deliver you back before tomorrow evening."
"Oh," she said, "his boy can look after him far better than I can. He's been with him longer."
"I meant that perhaps he mightn't trust me..."
"There hasn't been rain for days. The roads are quite good."
"Shall I talk to him then?"
"It isn't really what you came to say, is it?"
"I'll treat him as gently as I can. You've drawn my sting."
She said, "It will be fun—to go to Luc alone. I mean with you." She wiped her eyes dry with the back of her hand; she was no more ashamed of her tears than a child would have been.
"Perhaps the doctor will say you have nothing to fear. Which is his room?"
"Through the door at the end of the passage. You really won't be harsh to him?"
"No."
Rycker was sitting up in bed when he entered. He was wearing a look of grievance like a mask, but he took it off quickly and substituted another representing welcome when he saw his visitor. "Why, Querry? Was it you?"
"I came to see you on the way to Luc."
"It's good of you to visit me on a bed of sickness."
Querry said, "I wanted to see you about that stupid article by the Englishman."
"I gave it to Father Thomas to take to you." Rycker's eyes were bright with fever or pleasure. "There has never been such a sale in Luc for Paris-Dimanche, I can tell you that. The bookshop has sent for extra copies. They say they have ordered a hundred of the next issue."
"Did it never occur to you how detestable it would be to me?"
"I know the paper is not a very high-class one, but the article was highly laudatory. Do you realise that it's even been reprinted in Italy? The bishop, so I'm told, has had an enquiry from Rome."
"Will you listen to me, Rycker? I'm trying to speak gently because you are sick. But all this has to stop. I am not a Catholic, I am not even a Christian. I won't be adopted by you and your Church."
Rycker sat under the crucifix, wearing a smile of understanding.
"I have no belief whatever in a god, Rycker. No belief in the soul, in eternity. I'm not even interested."
"Yes. Father Thomas has told me how terribly you have been suffering from aridity."
"Father Thomas is a pious fool, and I came out here to escape fools, Rycker. Will you promise to leave me in peace or must I go again the way I came? I was happy before this started. I found I could work. I was feeling interested, involved in something..."
"It's a penalty of genius to belong to the world."
If he had to have a tormentor how gladly he would have chosen the cynical Parkinson. There were interstices in that cracked character where the tru
"Parkinson told me of the remorse you felt..."
"I have never felt remorse. Never. You all dramatise too much. We can retire from feeling just as naturally as we retire from a job. Are you sure that you still feel anything, Rycker, that you aren't pretending to feel? Would you greatly care if your factory were burnt down tomorrow in a riot?"
"My heart is not in that."
"And your heart isn't in your wife either. You made that clear to me the first time we met. You wanted someone to save you from St. Paul's threat of burning."
"There is nothing wrong in a Christian marriage," Rycker said. "It's far better than a marriage of passion. But if you want to know the truth, my heart has always been in my faith."
"I begin to think we are not so different, you and I. We don't know what love is. You pretend to love a god because you love no one else. But I won't pretend. All I have left me is a certain regard for the truth. It was the best side of the small talent I had. You are inventing all the time, Rycker, aren't you? There are men who talk about love to prostitutes—they daren't even sleep with a woman without inventing some sentiment to excuse them. You've even invented this idea of me to justify yourself. But I won't play your game, Rycker."
"When I look at you," Rycker said, "I can see a man tormented."
"Oh no you can't. I haven't felt any pain at all in twenty years. It needs something far bigger than you to cause me pain."
"Whether you like it or not, you have set an example to all of us."
"An example of what?"
"Unselfishness and humility," Rycker said.
"I warn you, Rycker, that unless you stop spreading this rubbish about me..."