Chaser by Staci Hart
I sighed. He was right. I took the twenty and folded it, slipping it into my pocket. “Thank you, Brian. Really.”
“I’m sorry that this happened. I’ll talk to Susan, see if we can’t figure out what’s going on.”
“All right. I should get going while it’s still light out.”
“Listen, when you get home, find a phone and text yourself from the number you want me to call, just in case we find it.”
“Okay. Thanks again.”
“Sure thing,” he said. “Come back if you need anything. I’ll be here for a few more hours.”
I walked out of the room and out of the building, feeling lost, naked. Alone. I never set foot out of my apartment without the things in that bag, and now I was walking through the city with nothing but a twenty dollar bill in my pocket and the clothes on my back. Walking toward Cooper’s house.
Looking back, I should have taken a cab. I should have hailed a cab and gone home and prayed someone was there to let me in. But I didn’t. Instead, I walked those blocks, thinking of all the reasons to go to him and all the reasons to walk away.
Reasons. Rules. Justifications I wore like armor to protect myself, to hide behind. I had been resolved, dug in my heels believing I was doing the right thing with every decision I made. But I didn’t know what was right or wrong anymore. I didn’t know what I wanted or what I needed.
I was still two blocks away when the sky opened up, first with fat, heavy drops, slow and steady, then faster, harder until it was raining in sheets. I could barely see. There was no awning, nowhere to wait out the deluge, so I hurried on, my hair hanging in my face, shoes slapping the pavement and clothes plastered to my body as I ran toward his building.
And the rain washed away my resolve. It washed away everything I thought I knew in rivulets and heavy drops, and the icy truth soaked through me, into my bones, so sharp that I split open. And what was left exposed was a scared little girl.
The doorman’s eyes bugged when he saw me approaching. “Are you all right, Miss Williams?”
I wrapped my arms around myself and nodded as I stepped under the canopy. “Just a little wet, thank you.”
He pulled open the door, and I ducked through shivering, my sneakers squeaking on the marble floor, across the big gold compass. He pressed the call button and stepped into the elevator, waving his fob over the pad.
“Just let me know if you need anything, miss.”
“Thank you.”
He tipped his hat and stepped out as the elevator doors closed. The only sounds were the chattering of my teeth and the hum of the motor as I rode up to his floor, stripped down and bare, my eyes on the seam of the doors and my heart frozen in my chest.
Cooper
The doorbell rang, and I got up, confused as I walked to the door, heartbroken when I opened it.
Maggie stood in my entryway, dripping wet, her curly hair hanging long and limp, her eyes wide and shiny. Her chin quivered, though I wasn’t sure if it was from her chattering teeth or the tears brimming in her eyes. Maybe both.
I reached for her, chest aching as I touched her freezing arm. “What’s wrong? What happened?”
She looked up at me, her brows knit together, voice soft, uncertain. “I … I’m sorry to barge in on you, it’s just that my bag was stolen at work today, and I didn’t know where else to go. I couldn’t call West, and I didn’t have any money or my phone or anything, and I just didn’t know what else to do.” The word trailed off, and she took a shaky breath.
“It’s all right, you don’t have to apologize. Come in.” I guided her in and closed the door, glad to have something tangible I could do to help her, glad she was all right, if not cold and scared. “Let me get you a towel.”
She followed me to the linen closet in the hallway, and I pulled out a fluffy gray towel. I handed it over, and she took it with trembling hands.
“What can I do?” I asked gently.
“I … don’t know.”
“Do you want me to take you home? Or you can shower here, and I can dry your clothes?”
She shook her head. “I don’t know.”
“I can’t help you if I don’t know what you need.”
Maggie looked up at me with eyes so big, so bright, so full of pain and fear and sadness. I realized then that this wasn’t just about her bag or the rain. It was about Maggie.
She leaned toward me, calling me without speaking a word.
I stepped into her, slipped a hand into her soaking hair and searched her face.
“Tell me what you need, Maggie,” I whispered.
But she didn’t answer, just reached for me, closed the distance between us as she drew in a breath and pressed her lips to mine.
That kiss told me she needed me. And there was nothing left to do but give myself to her.
So I wrapped her in my arms as if they could save her, kissed her as if I could replace her pain with my love.
My hands roamed down her back, and I picked her up, carried her to my bedroom and laid her down, our lips never parting. Her hands scrambled for the hem of my shirt and peeled it off, and I did the same, unhooking her bra and tossing it away. I looked down at her stretched out on my bed, laid my hand on the flat of her stomach and dragged it down to the button of her jeans.
I unzipped them. I peeled them off. My hungry eyes roamed her shivering body, down to her panties, soaked from the rain, transparent.
“Please, don’t stop,” she begged.
I couldn’t deny her. I kicked off my pants and underwear, stripped off her panties and crawled up her naked body, my hot skin against her cold, dragging my lips up her stomach, her breasts, her neck. My knee slipped between her thighs, and the moment I lay against her, the shivering stopped. She wrapped herself around me as I flexed my hips, pressing her into the bed, my lips against hers demanding and accepting, giving and taking.
She trailed her hands around to my ass, dragged her nails across my skin, around my hips.
“Please,” she breathed, her eyes sparking with emotion.
I met her urgent mouth as she pulled me into her, rolling her hips. I knew what she wanted — I wanted the same — and I shifted, resting my crown at the very edge of her. When I flexed, I couldn’t breathe, just looked into her eyes, slipping in slowly until there was no space between us.
Her eyes closed with a sigh as I pulled out and slammed back in. She reached for me, pulled me down to meet her lips. And I kissed her, and she kissed me, with frantic breath and a broken heart. I felt everything — her heart, her body — and I took her and gave myself to her, claimed her and surrendered to her with every motion.
Her breath quickened, her body flexed, and then she came with a gasp, pink lips stretched, brows drawn, eyes pinned shut. I was right behind her, my hand gripping her thigh as I thrust into her again.
I buried my face in her neck as she wrapped her arms around mine, wishing I could stay just like that forever.
Her breath hitched, and I pulled away to find her crying. My hands were in her hair, my eyes searching her face, my heart aching in my chest.
“Don’t cry. Please.”
“I’m sorry.”
I thumbed her cheek. “You don’t have to apologize to me, Maggie. There’s nothing to be sorry for.”
“I shouldn’t be here.” She looked away.
“Why?” I moved her face to look at me again.
“Because this isn’t fair to you.”
“I don’t care. You needed me.”
She shook her head. “I needed your help. This wasn’t supposed to happen.”
A tingle worked down my neck. “Do you regret it?”
She didn’t answer.
“Do you regret me? Answer me, Maggie.”
“I don’t know what you want me to say.” Her voice broke.
I rolled off of her, heart on fire as I picked up my pants and pulled them on, whirling around to face her. “You said you needed time, and I told you take it. I told you I’d be here fo
Her cheeks were red, lips flat as she blew out of bed and snatched her jeans off the ground. “You don’t love me.”
“Don’t tell me how I feel.”
Her face was hard when she turned around. “Everyone knows you don’t fall in love, Cooper … that was the whole point. It was the only reason why I agreed to this in the first place — you don’t feel. That was why this was supposed to work. No feelings. No strings. What happened to that?”
“Don’t throw that at me, Maggie. Don’t hide behind some bullshit rules that you invented to make yourself feel better for wanting me.”
“Screw you, Cooper.” She pulled on her pants and snatched up her clothes.
I stepped toward her, chin down. “I know you’re afraid of me, of this. You’re lying to yourself, and you’re lying to me. You want me just as much as I want you.”
“Don’t tell me how I feel.” She threw my words back at me and stormed out of the room, pulling on her shirt and shoes as I followed her through my apartment.
No way was I letting her walk away that easy. “Do you think this is some sort of game to me?”
She kept walking. “Track record, Cooper.”
“And you honestly believe that I put you and them in the same category? That I feel for you what I feel for them?”
She reached the front door and turned on me, face hard, eyes steely. “How the hell should I know? I’m just another girl in a long line of girls. You can tell me I’m different until the end of time, and I don’t know if I’ll ever believe you. You don’t love me. You don’t love anyone but yourself.” She shook her head at me. “This was a mistake. The whole thing was a mistake, and I should have known better.”
There it was. The truth. I couldn’t move, couldn’t speak as bitter cold blew through me. I watched her for a moment, trying to breathe. There was nothing left to say.
I swallowed hard. “You should go. Bobby’s downstairs — he’ll take you home.”
She watched me, emotion passing across her face. “Cooper—”
“Just go, Maggie. You said it yourself. I’m just a bad decision you made. A mistake. A distraction. I don’t mean anything to you, so just fucking go.” I opened the door.
She took a breath and stepped into the entryway. I closed the door just as she looked back over her shoulder.
My hands trembled as I walked back into my apartment, paced from one end to the other with my mind spinning so fast, I couldn’t catch a single thought.
She didn’t trust me. She didn’t believe me.
I didn’t know how it was possible after everything, after all the change in my heart and mind and life. I couldn’t comprehend how she didn’t see it. How something that was so true to me could be lost on her, the one person who I needed to understand.
She had changed me on the molecular level, and she had no idea.
In my entire life, she was the one thing that I was certain of, and I’d do anything to keep her. She was scared and confused, but I wasn’t. I knew exactly what I wanted, and it was her.
I would spend the rest of my life trying to convince her that I wasn’t a mistake at all. I’d convince her that she was the only girl in that line of girls. I’d convince her that I loved her far more than I could ever love myself.
I had to tell her. I picked up my phone, pulling up her contact before I realized her phone was missing.
“Fuck.” I muttered and paced back through the room. Bobby. I pulled up his contact and called.
“Hey, Coop,” he answered.
“Is she with you?”
“No, I’m still outside,” he said, confused. “She never came down.”
I ran a hand over my face, wondering where she’d gone. “I’ll be right down.”
Seconds later I was headed out the door. The doorman said he put her in a cab and sent her home, and I thanked him before trotting through the lobby and out the back door. And then we drove to her as I stared out the window, thinking of all the things I needed to say, hoping I wouldn’t find West there.
I wasn’t afraid of him.
I wasn’t afraid of anything but losing her.
Maggie
The tears didn’t stop in the elevator or as I climbed into a cab, not as I rode through the park with the sky on fire as the sun set. I’d stopped trying to wipe them away. More always came.
What have I done?
It was the question that rolled through my mind in a loop.
I shouldn’t have gone there, not in the state I was in. I shouldn’t have slept with him, but in his arms, I was safe, even if just for a moment. It was a mistake, but not like it sounded. It was a mistake because I’d hurt him.
He told me he loved me. He said it with his voice tight from his pain, his face bent in emotion. He said the words, and I threw them back at him.
I pushed him away because he was right. I hurt him because I was afraid.
Fucked up. Broken. Smashed. I couldn’t be trusted with his heart. I couldn’t even be trusted with mine.
The cab stopped in front of my building, and I paid him, thanking him quietly before climbing out. I walked to the building feeling like my world had stopped turning, though everyone else went about as if things were fine, normal. I climbed the stairs and knocked on my door.
Lily answered, and her face fell when she saw me. She pulled me into the apartment.
“Maggie, what happened?” She looked me over. “Where’s your stuff? Why are you wet?”
“I …” I squeaked.
West stood when he saw me, flew across the room, held me by the arms and ducked down to look me in the eye. “What happened, Mags? Are you all right?”
I nodded, but my face twisted as I tried to hold in a sob, any composure I had gone. He tucked me into his chest, and I felt Lily’s hand on my back.
“Where are your things?” he asked gently.
I took a breath as hot tears rolled down my cheeks. “They went missing at work.”
His body tensed. “Someone stole them? Dammit, I knew that job was going to be dangerous for you.”
Lily’s voice was soft. “Not now, West.”
He let out a breath and squeezed me tighter. “I’m sorry, Maggie. I’m sorry this happened.”
I looked over at Lily, feeling her questions. I gave her the slightest nod, and she closed her eyes for a brief moment.
“How did you get home?” West asked and let me go.
“I walked.”
“Why didn’t you call me?” His dark brow was low, and he shook his head.
“Because I knew you’d lose your mind.”
“You make me sound like a tyrant.”
I gave him a look.
His face softened with his voice. “If you need me, call me. Don’t walk home again with no money, no phone.”
Someone knocked on the door, and shock shot through me as I spun around, staring at it like it might explode. It was him. I knew it, and when Lily looked at me, I knew she knew too. Her eyes darted to West before she walked to the door and pulled it open.
Cooper was a burning man, the pain on his face unmistakable. His eyes found mine, and my heart stopped dead.
“Cooper?” West asked, confused. “What’s up, man?”
But his eyes were on me, and mine were on him. I shook my head.
“I need to talk to you,” he said.
West looked down at me. “Talk about what? What’s going on?”
“You shouldn’t have come here.” My voice trembled. Our eyes were still locked as panic rolled through me.
“Please. You have to hear me out.”
The tea
“I was wrong.” He walked into the room and toward me like nothing could stop him.
But there was one thing that could. West stepped in front of me, cutting Cooper off. Lily flanked West, eyes wide and bouncing between the two men.
West’s jaw was set. “I said, what the fuck is going on?”
Cooper finally looked away from me. “I need to talk to Maggie.”
West folded his arms across his chest. “What about?”
“Let it go, West.” He looked to me. “Come with me, please.”
His shoulders were square, body tight. “She’s not going anywhere until you tell me what the hell this is all about.”
Cooper’s eyes narrowed. “That’s not your decision to make.”
Lily touched West’s arm. “Guys—”
The tension crackled between Cooper and West, and I was the only one who could defuse it. I had to defuse it. I put out a hand and stepped forward. “Stop it, both of you. I’ll come with you, Cooper.”
West glared at me. “Why?”
Cooper shook his head and tried to step around. “Jesus, West. Just let her go. She’s a grown woman.”
My eyes were full of tears, and West turned on Cooper, laying a heavy hand on his chest, his voice low and full of warning. “What did you do to her?”
Cooper’s voice edged on frantic. “How do you know it was me who hurt her and not the other way around?”
“Are you …” West looked at me, confusion flickering across his face. “No. You two aren’t …” He looked back at Cooper, muttering, “You fucking wouldn’t. You’d never …”
Cooper shook his head, eyes open and honest, brow bent. “I love her, West,” he said as if the words would absolve him, save him.
My heart broke. West’s calm broke. Everything happened fast and slow somehow. The flash of West’s arm as he cocked a fist and released it like a spring. The flash of blood on Cooper’s face. The flash of Lily’s hair as she ran to get between them. And through it all, I couldn’t move, just stood rooted to the spot, watching it all happen.
West strained against Lily, who put all her weight into his chest. “Fuck you, Cooper, you son of a bitch. I can’t fucking believe that you would do this. This one fucking thing I told you never to do. One thing. Get out. Get the fuck out, or I swear to God, I will bury you.”