Field Grey by Philip Kerr

  The French had not exaggerated the difficulty of travelling to Berlin. The inner German border between West and East Germany - the Green Border - had been closed since May 1952, with transport links between the two halves of the country mostly severed. The only place where East Germans were able to cross freely into the West was in Berlin itself; and getting in or out of the East was restricted to a few points along a heavily guarded and fortified fence of which the largest and most frequently used was the Helmstedt-Marienborn crossing, at the edge of the Lappwald. First, though, we had to go to Hannover, in the British zone of occupation.

  We left the Gare du Nord on the overnight train: me and my two French handlers from the SDECE. They had names now - names and passports - although it seemed unlikely that their names were real, especially as I now had a passport myself - French - in the name of Sebastian Kleber, a travelling salesman from Alsace. The Frenchman with the eyebrows went by the name of Philippe Mentelin; the Insomniac was calling himself Emile Vigee.

  We had a sleeping compartment to ourselves but I was too excited to sleep and when, nine and a half hours later, the train pulled into Hannover railway station, I uttered a quiet little prayer of thanks that I was back in Prussia. The equestrian statue of King Ernst August was still in front of the station, and City Hall with its red roofs and green cupolas looked much the same as I remembered, but elsewhere the city was very different. Adolf Hitler Strasse was now Bahnhofstrasse; Horst Wessel Platz was Konigsworther Platz; and the Opera House no longer stood in Adolf Hitler Platz but Opern Platz. The Aegi- dienkirche on the corner of Breite Strasse was a bombed-out ruin, overgrown with ivy and left that way as a memorial to those who had died during the war. Elsewhere the city was hardly recognisable. One thing hadn't changed, however: it's said that the purest German is spoken in Hannover; and that's certainly what it sounded like to me.

  The safe-house was in the east of Hannover, in a large wooded area called the Eilenriede, on Hindenburg Strasse, close to the zoo. The house was a largish villa in a smallish garden. It had a red mansard roof and an octagonal corner tower with a silver- steel cupola. This tower contained my room, and although my door wasn't locked it was hard to rid myself of the impression that I was still a prisoner. Especially when I mentioned to Emile Vigee that I'd seen two suspicious-looking men from my Rapunzel-like vantage point.

  'Look there,' I said, inviting him into my room and over to the window. 'On Erwinstrasse, is it?'

  He nodded.

  'Those two men in the black Citroen,' I said. "They've been there for at least an hour. From time to time one of them gets out, smokes a cigarette, and watches this house. And I'm pretty sure he's armed, too.'

  'How can you tell from here?'

  'It's a warm day, but all three buttons on his suit are done up. And every so often he adjusts something on his breast.'

  'You have keen eyes, Monsieur Kleber.'

  Every time Vigee spoke to me now he called me Kleber, or Sebastian, to help me become accustomed to hearing this name.

  'I used to be a cop, remember?'

  'Nothing to worry about. They're both with us. As a matter of fact they're going to drive you to Berlin and back here before going on to Gottingen and Friedland. They're both German and they've made the drive many times before, so there shouldn't be a problem. They work for the VdH here in Hannover.' He glanced at his watch. 'I invited them both for dinner tonight. To give you a chance to meet them. They're a little early, that's all.'

  We went to dinner at the nearby Stadt Halle, formerly the Hermann Goring Stadt Halle - a very large round building that was a bit like Fat Hermann himself. With its green roof the place was half concert hall and half circus tent, but according to Vigee there was also a good restaurant.

  'Not as good as Paris, of course,' he said, 'but not bad for Hannover. With quite a reasonable wine list.' He shrugged. 'I expect that's why Goring liked it, eh?'

  As we arrived for dinner everyone else was leaving to go to the Friday night concert, and I decided the French had probably timed it that way so that we could talk without fear of being overheard. The music helped of course. It was Mendelssohn's Third Symphony, the Scottish.

  The two Frenchmen were disappointed with the food, but to me, after months of prison fare, it was delicious. My two fellow Germans had also brought hearty appetites, although little in the way of conversation. They wore grey suits to match their grey skin. Neither was very tall. One of them had bright blond hair that must have come out of a bottle; the other might have come out of a bottle himself, he drank so much, although it appeared not to affect him at all. The blonder man was called Werner Grottsch; the other called himself Klaus Wenger. Neither seemed inclined to try to find out anything about me. Perhaps they were already well informed on that subject by Vigee, but I thought it more likely that they knew better than to ask, and if so it was a compliment I repaid by making no enquiries of them.

  Eventually Vigee brought the conversation round to the true purpose of our acquaintance.

  'Sebastian's not crossed the border before,' he said. 'At least not since the implementation of the DDR's special regime.

  Werner, perhaps you'd like to put him in the picture about what will happen tomorrow. You'll be in a car with French diplomatic number plates. Even so it's always useful to know how to behave. What to expect.'

  Grottsch nodded politely, extinguished his cigarette, leaned forward and clasped his hands, as if he was going to lead us in prayer.

  'It's called the special regime because the measures are intended to keep out spies, diversionists, terrorists and smugglers. In other words, people like us.' He smiled at his own little joke. 'We'll be crossing at Checkpoint Alpha. At Helm- stedt. It's the largest and busiest crossing point because it offers the shortest land route between West Germany and West Berlin. It's one hundred and eighty-five kilometres through East Germany to Berlin. The road runs through a fenced corridor that's heavily guarded. A bit like No Man's Land if you remember that, and almost as dangerous, so if we have a breakdown, on no account get out of the car. We wait for assistance, no matter how long that takes. If you get out you risk being shot, and people do get shot. The border police - the Grepos - are particularly trigger-happy. Do I make myself clear?'

  'Abundantly clear, Herr Grottsch. Thank you.'

  'Good.' Grottsch cocked an ear at the air and nodded his appreciation. 'What a pleasure to listen to Mendelssohn again. And not to be worried that one was being unpatriotic.'

  'He was German, wasn't he?' I said. 'From Hamburg.'

  'No, no,' said Grottsch. 'Mendelssohn was a Jew.'

  Wenger nodded and lit a cigarette. 'That's right,' he said. 'He was. A Jew from Leipzig.'

  'Of course,' Grottsch went on, 'going in is one thing. Getting out is quite another. Inspection pits, mirrors, there's even a mortuary where they can look inside coffins to check if an occupant who wanted to be buried in West Germany is really dead. Even Mendelssohn couldn't leave these days without the proper paperwork. And he's been dead for a hundred years.'

  'Your lady friend,' said Wenger. 'Fraulein Dehler. You'll be pleased to know she's still at the same address. But she's no longer a dressmaker. She now runs a nightclub called The Queen on Auguste-Viktoria Strasse.'

  'A straight kind of place?'

  'As straight as they go.'

  Helmstedt was an attractive little medieval town of brightly coloured towers and unusual churches. The town hall looked like an enormous organ from a cathedral that, typically, no longer existed. The red-brick university building resembled a military barracks. I might have seen more of it but my two companions were keen to get through Checkpoint Alpha so that we might reach Berlin before dark. And I could hardly fault them for that. From Marienborn, Berlin was a three- hour drive through an inhospitable landscape of barbed wire and, on the other side of the fence, men with dogs, and mines. But nothing compared with the inhospitable faces of the Grepos at Checkpoint Alpha. In their jackboots, cross- belts, and long leather coats
the Border Police reminded me strongly of the SS, and the long wooden huts they emerged from were like something from a concentration camp. The swastikas were gone, replaced by the red stars and the hammer and sickle, but everything else felt the same. Except for one thing. Nazism had never looked quite so permanent as this. Or so thorough.

  Grottsch and Wenger shared the driving, which was straightforward enough; if you drive east on the A2 for long enough you arrive in Berlin. But they remained wary of asking questions, as if the French had warned them against the answers. So when we spoke at all it was concerning nothing of any real consequence: the weather, the scenery, the Citroen versus the Mercedes, life in the DDR and, as we got nearer our destination, the Four Powers and their continuing occupation of the former German capital, which we all agreed none of us liked. It went without question that we thought the Russians the worst of all, but we spent at least an hour arguing which of the other three was going to take the silver medal. It seemed my two colleagues were of the opinion that the British had the same faults as the Americans - arrogance and ignorance - without any of the virtues - money - that made their arrogance and ignorance easier to ignore. The French, we decided, were simply the French: not to be taken seriously, and therefore beneath any real contempt. Personally I had my doubts about the British, and if I had any lingering doubts about my silver-plated dislike of the Americans they were soon to be dispelled. Just south-west of Berlin, at the Dreilinden border crossing into the city in Zehlendorf, we were obliged to stop to present our papers again; and entering the American zone we parked our car and went into a shop to buy some cigarettes. I was used to seeing, and smoking, mostly American brands. It was all the other American brands in the shop that brought me up short: Chex breakfast cereal, Rexall toothpaste, Sanka caffeine-free coffee, Ballantine beer, Old Sunnybrook Kentucky whiskey, Dash dog food, Jujyfruits, Appian Way pizza-mix, Pream, Nescafe and 7UP. I might have been back in Berlin, but not so as you would have noticed.

  We drove into the French sector, to a safe-house on Bernauer Strasse that overlooked the Russian sector, which is to say the French controlled the north pavement and the Russians controlled the south. It hardly mattered. Even if it didn't look like the Berlin I remembered - on the Soviet side of the street the bombed-out buildings remained in total disrepair - it still felt and smelt much the same: cynical, mongrel - perhaps more mongrel than ever. In my head and heart an orchestra the size of a division was playing 'Berliner Luft' and I was clapping and whistling in all the right places for a true citizen. In Berlin it was never about being German - Hitler and Goebbels never understood that - it was being a Berliner first and telling anyone who wanted to change that to go to Hell. One day we would surely be rid of the rest of them, too. The Ivans, the Tommies, the Franzis and yes, even the Amis. Friends are always harder to get rid of than enemies; especially when they believe they're good friends.

  The following day the two Germans drove me to Motzstrasse in the American sector.

  We drew up outside number twenty-eight. The building was in a much better state of repair than the last time I'd been there. For one thing it had been painted canary yellow; there were several window boxes filled with geraniums; and in front of the heavy oak door someone had planted a thriving lime tree. The whole area looked like it was doing well. Across the street was an expensive porcelain shop and below Elisabeth's first-floor apartment was an equally pricey restaurant called Kottler's, where my two escorts elected to wait for me.

  The street door was open. I went upstairs and rang the bell and listened. Inside Elisabeth's apartment I could hear music, and then it stopped. A moment later the door opened and she was standing in front of me. Seven years older and at least five kilos heavier. Before she'd been a brunette. Now she was a blonde. The weight suited her more than the hair colour, which didn't really match her widening brown eyes, but I hardly minded that as it was six months since I'd even spoken to a woman, let alone one in her dressing gown. Just seeing Elisabeth like that reminded me of a more innocent time before the war, when sex still seemed like a practical proposition.

  Her jaw dropped and she blinked, deliberately, as if she really didn't believe her own eyes.

  'Oh my God, it's you,' she said. 'I was afraid you were dead.'

  'I was. Eternal life has its advantages but it's amazing how quickly you get bored. So, here I am again. Back in the city of mahogany and marijuana.'

  'Come in, come in.' She vacuumed me inside, closed the door and hugged me fondly. 'I don't have any marijuana,' she said, 'but I have good coffee. Or something stronger.'

  'Coffee will be fine.' I followed her along a corridor and into the kitchen. 'I like what you've done with the place. You've put furniture in it. The last time I was here I think you'd sold everything. To the Amis.'

  'Not everything.' Elisabeth smiled. 'I never sold that. Lots did, mind. But not me.' She set about making the coffee and then said, 'How long has it been?'

  'Since I was last here? Six or seven years.'

  'It seems longer. Where have you been? What were you doing?'

  'None of that matters now. The past. Right now the only thing that matters is right now. Everything else is irrelevant. Or at least that's how it seems to me.'

  'You really were dead, weren't you?'

  'Mmm hmm.'

  She made coffee and led the way into a small but comfortable sitting room. The furniture was solid but unremarkable. Outside, the copper-coloured leaves of the linden tree helped to shade the window from the bright autumn sun. I felt quite at home. As much at home as I was likely to feel anywhere.

  'No sewing machine,' I observed.

  "There's not much call for expensive tailoring any more,' she said. 'Not in Berlin, anyway. Not since the war. Who can afford such things? These days I run a club called The Queen. On Auguste-Viktoria Strasse. Number seventy-six. Drop by some time. Not today of course. We're closed on Sundays. Which is why I'm here.'

  'Is it a Sunday? I don't know.'

  'Dead and just coming back to life. That's hardly respectable. But the club is. Probably too respectable for a man like you, but that's what the customers want nowadays. No one wants the old Berlin any more. With the sex clubs and the whores.'

  'No one?'

  'All right. The Americans don't seem to want them. At least not officially.'

  'You surprise me. In Cuba they couldn't get enough of the sex clubs. Every night there was a long line outside the most notorious club of all, The Shanghai.'

  'I don't know about Cuba, but here we get some very Lutheran Americans. Well, this is Germany, after all. It's as if they think the Russians might use any sign of depravity as an excuse to invade West Berlin. They seem to want to make the Cold War as cold as possible, for everyone involved. Did you know that you can get yourself arrested for nude sunbathing in the parks?'

  'At my age that's hardly a concern.' I sipped her coffee and nodded my appreciation.

  Elisabeth lit a cigarette. 'So it was you. The person who sent me that money, from Cuba. I thought it must be.'

  'At the time I had more than enough to spare.'

  'And now?'

  'I'm sorting things out.'

  'You don't look like someone who's just back from the sun.'

  'Like I said. At my age. I was never one for lying around in the sun.'

  'Me, I love it. Whenever I can. After all, the winters we get. What sort of things are you sorting out?'

  'The Berlin kind.'

  'Hmm. That sounds suspicious. This used to be a city of whores. And you don't look like a whore. Now it's a city of spies. So-' She shrugged and sipped her coffee.

  'I expect that's why they don't like joy-ladies and sex clubs. Because they want their spies honest. And as for nude sunbathing well, it's difficult being something you're not when you've got your clothes off.'

  'I'll bear that in mind. As a matter of fact we get lots of spies in the club. American spies.'

  'How can you tell?'

  'They're the ones not
wearing uniforms.'

  She was joking, of course. But that didn't mean it wasn't true. I glanced over at a radiogram the size of a drinks cabinet from which a low murmur was emanating. 'What are we almost listening to?'

  'RIAS,' she said.

  'I don't know that station. I don't know any of the Berlin stations.'

  'It stands for Radio in the American Sector.' She said it in English. Good English, too. 'I always listen to RIAS on a Sunday morning. To help my English. No, to improve my English.'

  I pulled a face. On the coffee table was a copy of Die Neue Zeitung. 'American radio. American newspapers. Sometimes I think we lost a lot more than just a war.'

  'They're not so bad. Who's paying your rent?'

  'The VdH.'

  'Of course. You were a prisoner yourself, weren't you?'

  I nodded.

  'A couple of years ago I went to one of those exhibitions put on by the VdH,' she said. 'On the POW experience. They had reconstructed a Soviet POW camp complete with a wooden watch tower and a four-metre-high barbed-wire fence.'

  'Was there a gift shop?'

  'No. Just a newspaper.'

  'Der Heimkehrer.'

  'Yes.'

  'It's a rag. Among other things, the VdH leadership believes that a free people cannot renounce in principle the protection of a new German Army.'

  'But you don't believe that?'

  I shook my head. 'It's not that I don't think military service is a good idea. In principle.' I lit a cigarette. 'It's just that I don't trust our Western allies not to use us as cannon fodder in a new war that some lunatic Confederate American general thinks he can fight on German soil, safely. Which is to say, a long way from America. But which in reality no one can win. Not us. Not them.'