In the Dead of Night by Jason Wallace Poetry
In the Dead of Night
By Jason Wallace Poetry
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In the Dead of Night
Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace Poetry
In the Dead of Night
I wear this mask
To hide and deaden the pain
When all I want to do
Is call you
And scream out your name
You almost act like you want me back
But no matter this or that,
It's just not the same
I know. I know. I know.
You just had to go
I'm not glad you went
But with all those crazy nights
I'm so glad you came
When you wake up
In the dead of night
Feeling so empty
And full of fright
Remember who still loved you
And if you had
He just might
I hope I still haunt your dreams
The way
You still do me
And if it all went
According to some higher plan
The dreams would come to life
And you'd understand
When you wake up
In the dead of night
Feeling so empty
And so full of fright
Remember who still loved you
And if you had again
He just might
And you'd understand
That he never meant
To make you feel he was letting go
He just needed time
And you didn't know
That all he could ever think about
Was how he cared for you
But couldn't let it out
And how he hoped
For something more
Kept holding on and
Fighting for
His brain to never win
Over his heart
To realize
That it was all just mistakes
And it should have never fallen apart
When you wake up
In the dead of night
Feeling so empty
And full of fright
Remember who still loved you
And if you had
He just might
When you wake up
Without me
Remember that
You set me free
Even though
I did it first
We kept coming back
To try to make it work
But we both closed ourselves off
From time to time
So when the other wanted it back
It was almost too late to try
So if I'm in
Your dreams tonight
Think of this
And hold your pillow tight
I'm probably lying here
With you in mine, too
Which means
That it's all true
When you wake up
In the dead of night
Feeling so empty
And full of fright
Remember who still loved you
And if you had
He just might
When you wake up
In the dead of night
Feeling so empty
And full of fright
Remember who still loved you
And if you had
He just might
He just might
Broken Angel
You're too far away
You're too much for me to take
You torture me
You take away
Any peace I prayed to save
Every time I hear your voice
Or I even hear your name...
I go insane
I feel the same
Creeping feelings of regret
And I forget to hold my head high
I begin to bear the blame
I give into the temptation
That contemplation has erased
Confusion, constant oblation
For anything more than this serious situation
That I wish I did not have to face
You were once
The angel of my dreams
I forgot to let myself see
What you really did to me
We're broken in different ways
I'm broken down
Looking all around
For any sense of salvation
I wish you could find the same
Because in your brain
You seem to think that it's ok
To leave someone hurting in such a way
Breaking hearts, tearing apart
All inclination
To move past sentimental sensation
Broken angel, maybe of my own creation
We were walking wearily
Into a snare we could not see
We almost let ourselves
Be tied together for life
And that's not right
Because the truth about me
Is I was never anything
That you really wanted
With your halo burning bright
Really an illusion
If you say so, I just might
End all of my confusion
By cursing you by name
By bursting out of all my seams, all the same
You were once
The angel of my dreams
I forgot to let myself see
What you really did to me
We're broken in different ways
I'm broken down
Looking all around
For any sense of salvation
I wish you could find the same
Because in your brain
You seem to think that it's ok
To leave someone hurting in such a way
Breaking hearts, tearing apart
All inclination
To move past sentimental sensation
Broken angel, maybe of my own creation
You really were everything
I ever wanted
You were my all, my serenity
But now right in front of me
Is the realization
That there is no meant to be
There is no pre-planned one to set you free
And I rushed and put off all chance of patience
My life, to my disappointment
Is a life without you
Nothing more or less will ever do
I simply cannot avoid it
I cannot spend another day wasting
Waiting for a rescue, your invitation
You were once
The angel of my dreams
But no my nightmare become flesh
I forgot to let myself see
What you really did to me
We're broken in different ways
I'm broken down
Beaten, defeated, denied, your utmost regret
Looking all around
For any sense of salvation
I wish you could find the same
Because in your brain
You seem to think that it's ok
To leave someone hurting in such a way
Breaking hearts, tearing apart
All inclination, all hope, all absence of hesitation
To move past sentimental sensation
Broken angel, maybe of my own creation
My darkest creation
Touch Your Face
Baby, I...
Never meant to hurt you
I never...
Meant to make you cry
I can't understand how
&
I just can't see why
You would be so forgiving
To someone
Who abused your love
And took you for granted
I never gave you enough
What did I ever do
To keep you here
To earn the right
To still love you
Love is all about
The ability to forgive and forget
I swear I'll try harder, Baby
Please don't give up on me just yet
I can't believe
I could allow myself
To treat you this way
I never realized
What I had
I really played
The villain in the play
Lookin in your eyes tonight
I can't see how
I ever lost my sight
Of what you really meant
And all the good and bad
That came and went
I always let you let me go
To do what I wanted but didn't know
Was so wrong to do
And all along
I was never really true
Did I ever force your hand
Or place on you demands
I am so sorry
For my selfish ways
I am such a disgrace
Please just let me...
Touch your face
Evermore
I couldn't make you
Love me
Your love had to fade
I told you
We could make it all work
But you just wouldn't wait
I still...
Wanted you to stay
But I guess
What you felt
Turned into hate
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I wouldn't force you
To do what
You don't wanna do
But you convinced me
So many times
To give
More chances to you
Then when I asked you
To give me the same
You said you couldn't
And had to go away
I can't help it
If I scream your name
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I couldn't make you
Love me
If it's not in the cards
What I had in mind...
It's too hard
You turned back
When we'd made it so far
So good
Would it ever do
Did you believe
That I loved you
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I can't make you
Adore me
Like you once did
Despite all you did for me
You must admit
You knew it would end
The wounds couldn't mend
And you'd find your way out
I can't say I'll see your face
All of time could never replace
The feelings I have
The love that I know
We both have had our doubts
I guess they showed
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You