Lord of Shadows by Cassandra Clare
One of the glasses of water on a nightstand fell over with a crash.
"Jessamine didn't appreciate that," said Kit.
Cristina laughed--she wasn't injured either, but she was worrying at the pendant around her throat as she watched Mark tend to Kieran's injuries. Hunters healed faster, Emma knew, but they also bruised easily, it seemed. A map of blue-black spread over Kieran's back and shoulders, and one of his cheekbones was darkening. With a cloth that Cristina had wet down in one of his hands, Mark was gently sponging away the blood.
The elf-bolt gleamed around Mark's neck. Emma didn't know what was going on with Mark and Kieran and Cristina exactly--Cristina had been remarkably reluctant to explain--but she knew Kieran had learned the truth about his and Mark's relationship. Still, Kieran hadn't taken his elf-bolt back, so that was something.
She realized with a small jolt of surprise that she was hoping things worked out for them. She hoped that wasn't disloyal to Cristina. But she was no longer angry at Kieran--he might have made a mistake, but he'd made up for it many times over since then.
"Where was Jessamine earlier?" said Julian. "Isn't she supposed to protect the Institute?"
Another crash of glass.
"She says she can't leave the Institute. She can only protect inside of it." Kit paused. "I don't know if I should repeat the rest of what she said." After a moment, he smiled. "Thank you, Jessamine."
"What did she say?" Livvy asked, picking up her stele.
"That I'm a true Herondale," he said. He frowned. "What did that metal guy say to me when I told him my name? Was it faerie language?"
"Oddly, it was Latin," said Julian. "An insult. Something Mark Antony once said to Augustus Caesar--'you, boy, who owe everything to a name.' He was saying he would never have amounted to anything if he hadn't been a Caesar."
Kit looked annoyed. "I've been a Herondale for like three weeks," he said. "And I'm not sure what I've gotten out of it."
"Do not pay too much attention to the pronouncements of faeries," said Kieran. "They will get under your skin in any way they can."
"Does that include you?" asked Cristina, with a smile.
"Obviously," said Kieran, and he smiled too, just slightly.
Theirs might be the weirdest friendship she'd ever seen, Emma thought.
"We're off topic," said Livvy. "Annabel Blackthorn is in our library. That's weird, right? Doesn't anyone else think it's weird?"
"Why is that weirder than vampires?" said Ty, clearly perplexed. "Or werewolves?"
"Well, of course you wouldn't think it was," said Kit. "You're the one who told her to come."
"Yes, about that," Julian began. "Is there a particular reason you didn't tell any of us--"
Ty was saved from a brotherly chastisement by the infirmary door opening. It was Magnus. Emma didn't like the way he looked--he seemed grimly pale, his eyes shadowed, his movements stiff, as if he were bruised. His mouth was set in a serious line.
"Julian," he said. "If you could come with me."
"What for?" asked Emma.
"I've been trying to talk to Annabel," Magnus said. "I thought she might be willing to open up to someone who wasn't a Shadowhunter if she had the option, but she's stubborn. She's stayed polite, but she says she'll only speak to Julian."
"Does she not remember you?" Julian asked, getting up.
"She remembers me," said Magnus. "But as a friend of Malcolm's. And she's not his biggest fan these days."
Ungrateful, Emma remembered Kieran saying. But he was silent now, rebuttoning his torn shirt, his bruised eyes cast downward.
"Why doesn't she want to talk to Ty?" said Livvy. "He sent her the message."
Magnus shrugged an I couldn't tell you shrug.
"All right, I'll be right back," said Julian. "We're leaving for Idris as soon as possible, so everyone grab anything they might need to take with them."
"The Council meeting is this afternoon," Magnus said. "I'll have the strength to make a Portal in a few hours. We'll be sleeping in Alicante tonight."
He sounded relieved about it. He and Julian headed out into the hallway. Emma meant to hang back, but she couldn't--she darted after them before the door closed.
"Jules," she said. He had already started down the corridor with Magnus; at the sound of her voice, they both turned.
She couldn't have done it in the infirmary, but it was just Magnus, and he already knew. She went up to Julian and put her arms around him. "Be careful," she said. "She sent us into a trap in that church. This could be a trap too."
"I'll be right there, outside the room," Magnus said, subdued. "I'll be ready to intervene. But Julian, under no circumstances should you try to take the Black Volume from her, even if she isn't holding it. It's tied to her with pretty powerful magic."
Julian nodded, and Magnus disappeared down the hallway, leaving them alone. For long moments, they held each other in silence, letting the anxiety of the day dissipate: their fear for each other in the battle, their fear for the children, their worry over what was going to happen in Alicante. Julian was warm and solid in her arms, his hand tracing a soothing line down her back. He smelled of cloves, as always, as well as antiseptic and bandages. She felt his chin nudge her hair as his fingers flew across the back of her shirt.
D-O-N-T W-O-R-R-Y.
"Of course I'm worried," said Emma. "You saw what she did to Etarlam. Do you think you can convince her to just give you the book?"
"I don't know," Julian said. "I'll know when I talk to her."
"Annabel's been lied to so much," said Emma. "Don't promise anything we can't deliver."
He kissed her forehead. His lips moved against her skin, his voice so low that no one who didn't know him as well as Emma did could have understood him at all. "I will do," he said, "whatever I need to do."
She knew he meant it. There was nothing more to say; she watched him go down the corridor toward the library with troubled eyes.
*
Kit was in his room packing his meager belongings when Livvy came in. She'd dressed for the trip to Idris, in a long black skirt and a round-collared white shirt. Her hair was loose down her back.
She looked at Ty, sitting on Kit's bed. They'd been discussing Idris and what Ty remembered of it. "It's not like any place else," he'd told Kit, "but when you get there, you'll feel like you've been there before."
"Ty-Ty," Livvy said. "Bridget says you can take one of the old Sherlock Holmes books from the library and keep it."
Ty's face lit up. "Which one?"
"Whichever you want. Your choice. Just hurry up; we're going to leave as soon as we can, Magnus said."
Ty bounded to the door, seemed to remember Kit, and swung back around. "We can talk more later," he said, and darted off down the hallway.
"Only one book! One!" Livvy called after him with a laugh. "Ouch!" She reached up to fiddle with something at the back of her neck, her face crinkled in annoyance. "My necklace is caught on my hair--"
Kit reached up to untangle the thin gold chain. A locket dangled from it, kissing the hollow of her throat. Up close, she smelled like orange blossoms.
Their faces were very close together, and the pale curve of her mouth was near his. Her lips were light rose pink. Confusion stirred in Kit.
But it was Livvy who shook her head. "We shouldn't, Kit. No more kissing. I mean, we only did it once anyway. But I don't think that's how we're meant to be."
The necklace came free. Kit drew his hands away quickly, confused.
"Why?" he asked. "Did I do something wrong?"
"Not even a little." She looked at him for a moment with her wise and thoughtful eyes; there was a soft happiness in Livvy that drew Kit, but not in a romantic way. She was right, and he knew it. "Everything's great. Ty even says he thinks we should be parabatai, after all this is cleared up." Her face glowed. "I hope you'll come to the ceremony. And you'll always be my friend, right?"
"Of course," he said, and only later did he stop to think that she ha
*
Julian felt a twist of apprehension in his stomach as he entered the library. Part of him half-expected Annabel to have vanished, or to be drifting around the stacks of books like a long-haired ghost in a horror movie. He'd seen one once where the ghost of a girl had crawled out of a well, her pale face hidden behind masses of wet, dark hair. The memory gave him shivers even now.
The library was well illuminated by its rows of green banker's lamps. Annabel sat at the longest table, the Black Volume in front of her, her hands clasped in her lap. Her hair was long and dark, and half-hid her face, but it wasn't wet and there wasn't anything obviously uncanny about her. She looked--ordinary.
He sat down across from her. Magnus must have brought her something to wear from the storage room: She was in a very plain blue dress, a little short in the sleeves. Jules guessed she had been around nineteen when she died, maybe twenty.
"That was quite a trick you pulled," he said, "with the note in the church. And the demon."
"I didn't expect you to burn the church down." That pronounced accent was back in her voice, the strangeness of a way of speaking long outdated now. "You surprised me."
"And you've surprised me, coming here," Julian said. "And saying you'd only talk to me. You don't even like me, I thought."
"I came because of this." She drew the folded paper from the book and held it out to him. Her fingers were long, the joints strangely misshapen. He realized he was looking at evidence that her fingers had been broken, more than once, and that the bones had knit back together oddly. The visible remnants of torture. He felt a little sick as he took the letter and opened it.
To: Annabel Blackthorn
Annabel,
You might not know me, but we are related. My name is Tiberius Blackthorn.
My family and I are looking for the Black Volume of the Dead. We know you have it, because my brother Julian saw you take it from Malcolm Fade.
I'm not blaming you. Malcolm Fade is not our friend. He tried to hurt our family, to destroy us if he could. He's a monster. But the thing is, we need the book now. We need it so that we can save our family. We're a good family. You would like us if you knew us. There's me--I'm going to be a detective. There is Livvy, my twin, who can fence, and Drusilla, who loves everything scary, and Tavvy, who likes stories read to him. There is Mark, who is part faerie. He's an excellent cook. There is Helen, who was exiled to guard the wards, but not because she did anything wrong. And Emma, who isn't strictly a Blackthorn but is like our extra sister anyway.
And there is Jules. You might like him the best. He is the one who takes care of us all. He is the reason we're all okay and still together. I don't think he knows we know that, but we do. Sometimes he might tell us what to do or not listen, but he would do anything for any of us. People say we're unlucky because we don't have parents. But I think they're unlucky because they don't have a brother like mine.
Julian had to stop there. The pressure behind his eyes had built to a shattering intensity. He wanted to put his head down on the table and burst into unmanly, undignified tears--for the boy he had been, scared and terrified and twelve years old, looking at his younger brothers and sisters and thinking, They're mine now.
For them, their faith in him, their expectation his love would be unconditional, that he wouldn't need to be told he was loved back because of course he was. Ty thought this about him and probably thought it was obvious. But he had never guessed.
He forced himself to stay silent, to keep his face expressionless. He laid the letter down on the table so that the shaking of his hand was less visible. There was only a little writing left.
Don't think I'm asking you to do us a favor for nothing in return. Julian can help you. He can help anyone. You can't want to be running and hiding. I know what happened to you, what the Clave and Council did. Things are different now. Let us explain. Let us show you how you don't have to be exiled or alone. You don't have to give us the book. We just want to help.
We're at the London Institute. Whenever you want to come, you'd be welcome.
Yours,
Tiberius Nero Blackthorn
"How does he know what happened to me?" Annabel didn't sound angry, only curious. "What the Inquisitor and the others did to me?"
Julian got to his feet and went across the room to where the aletheia crystal rested on a bookcase. He brought it back and gave it to her. "Ty found this in Blackthorn Hall," he said. "These are someone's memories of your--trials--in the Council chamber."
Annabel raised the crystal to eye level. Julian had never seen the expression of someone looking into an aletheia crystal before. Her eyes widened, tracking back and forth as she gazed at the scene moving before her. Her cheeks flushed, her lips shook. Her hand began to jerk uncontrollably, and she flung the crystal away from her; it hit the table, denting the wood without breaking.
"Oh God, is there to be no mercy?" she said in an empty voice. "Will there never be any mercy or forgetfulness?"
"Not while this is still an injustice." Julian's heart was beating hard, but he knew he showed no outward signs of agitation. "It will always hurt as long as they haven't recompensed you for what they did."
She raised her eyes to his. "What do you mean?"
"Come with me to Idris," Julian said. "Testify in front of the Council. And I will see to it that you get justice."
She turned pale and swayed slightly. Julian half-rose from his chair. He reached for her and stopped; maybe she wouldn't want to be touched.
And there was some part of him that didn't want to touch her. He'd seen her when she was a skeleton held together with a fragile cobwebbing of yellowed skin and tendon. She looked real and solid and alive now, but he couldn't help but feel his hand would pass through her skin and strike crumbling bone beneath.
He drew his hand back.
"You cannot offer me justice," she said. "You cannot offer me anything I want."
Julian felt cold all over, but he could not deny the excitement sparking through his nerves. He saw the plan, suddenly, in front of him, the strategy of it, and the excitement of that overrode even the chill of the razor's edge he was walking.
"I never told anyone you were in Cornwall," he said. "Even after the church. I kept your secret. You can trust me."
She looked at him with wide eyes. This was why he had done it, Julian thought. He had kept this information to himself as possible leverage, even when he hadn't known for sure that there would ever be a moment he could use it. Emma's voice whispered in his head.
Julian, you scared me a little.
"I wanted to show you something," Julian said, and drew from his jacket a rolled-up paper. He handed it across the table to Annabel.
It was a drawing he had done of Emma, on Chapel Cliff, the sea breaking under her feet. He had been pleased with the way he had captured the wistful look on her face, the sea thick as paint below her, the weak sun gray-gold on her hair.
"Emma Carstairs. My parabatai," said Julian.
Annabel raised grave eyes. "Malcolm spoke of her. He said she was stubborn. He spoke of all of you. Malcolm was afraid of you."
Julian was stunned. "Why?"
"He said what Tiberius said. He said you would do anything for your family."
You have a ruthless heart. Julian pushed away the words Kieran had said to him. He couldn't be distracted. This was too important. "What else can you tell from the picture?" he said.
"That you love her," said Annabel. "With all of your soul."
There was nothing suspicious in her gaze; parabatai were meant to love each other. Julian could see the prize, the solution. Kieran's testimony was one piece of the puzzle
"Malcolm?" she said, with her eyebrows raised. "But that was a long time ago."
"Not Malcolm. Blackthorn Manor. The one in Idris. Where you lived when you were a child. All your drawings of it were alive. Like you could see it in your mind. Touch it with your hand. Be there in your heart."
She laid his sketch down on the table. She was silent.
"You could get that back," he said. "The manor house, all of it. I know why you ran. You expected that if the Clave caught you, they'd punish you, hurt you again. But I can promise you they won't. They're not perfect, they're far from perfect, but this is a new Clave and Council. Downworlders sit on our Council."
Her eyes flew open. "Magnus said that, but I didn't believe him."
"It's true. Marriage between a Downworlder and a Shadowhunter isn't illegal anymore. If we bring you before the Clave, they won't just not hurt you--you'll be reinstated. You'll be a Shadowhunter again. You could live in Blackthorn Manor. We'd give it to you."
"Why?" She rose to her feet and began to pace. "Why would you do all that for me? For the book? Because I will not give it to you."
"Because I need you to stand up in front of the Council and say that you killed Malcolm," he told her. She had left the Black Volume on the table before him. She was still pacing, not looking at him. Recalling Magnus's warning--under no circumstances should you try to take the Black Volume from her, even if she isn't holding it--Julian opened it cautiously, peered at a page of cramped, unreadable lettering. An idea was beginning to unfurl inside his mind, like a cautious flower. He reached into his pocket.
"That I killed Malcolm?" She spun to stare at him. He had his phone out, but he suspected it meant nothing to her--she'd probably seen mundanes wandering around with cell phones, but she'd never think of it as a camera. In fact, a camera wouldn't mean anything to her either.
"Yes," he said. "Believe me, you'll be hailed as a hero."
She'd begun pacing again. Julian's shoulders ached. The position he was in, both hands occupied and leaning forward, was an awkward one. But if this worked, it would be more than worth the pain.