Prayers to Broken Stones by Dan Simmons
“Sure I do, but it isn’t that simple, Whit. Not only do I … I have a contract. It specifies that …”
“Those last days will make a difference …”
“So what did he say?”
“Look, I don’t see what difference it makes if I see him now or when he gets back in August. If he has to decide on the position, they can’t fill it ’til he gets back, can they? If I can just make arrangements to …”
“Oh, yeah? Yeah, I see. Before he goes? Yeah. Yeah. Uh-huh, I see that …”
“No, Whit, it is important that you’re going to be there. It’s just a matter of … it’s just that I don’t have the money to fly. And then I’d have to fly back to get my stuff.”
“Yeah. Yeah. That’d work out, but I can’t afford to miss those last few … I don’t know. I suppose, why? Hell, Whitney, you’ve been to Europe before … why don’t you … no, really, why don’t you tell your folks you can’t join them until late June or …”
“Yeah. You did? Your folks won’t be there? What about … whatshername, the housekeeper, yeah, Millie … Until when?”
“Damn. Yes, it does sound good.”
“No, no, I do appreciate it, Whitney. You don’t know how much it means to me …”
“Yeah. Uh-huh, that all makes sense but, look, it’s hard to explain. No, listen, there’s tomorrow. Friday, yeah … and then Monday’s off because of Memorial Day. Then they go Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday’s their last day. No … just report cards and stuff. Look, couldn’t it be just a week later?”
“Uh-huh. Yeah. OK, I understand that. Well, look, let me think about it overnight, all right?”
“I know that … but he’s around on Saturday, isn’t he?”
“OK, look, I’ll call you tomorrow … that’s Friday night … and I’ll let you know what … no, goddamn it, Whit, I’m poor but I’m not that poor, I don’t want your parents getting billed for … look, I’ll call you about nine o’clock, that’s … uh … eleven your time, OK?”
“Well, you could call him on Saturday then and tell him I’d be there Wednesday, or I can just wait and hope something else opens up. Uh-huh, uh-huh … well, let’s just … just let me think about it, OK? Yes … well, I will take that into consideration, don’t worry.”
“Look, Whit, I’m running out of quarters here. Yeah. About nine … I mean eleven. No … me too. It’s real good to hear your voice … Yeah. OK. I’ll talk to you tomorrow then. Yeah … I look forward to seeing you soon, too. Me too. Bye, Whit.”
After Dobby’s unsuccessful escape attempt, they hung him from chains on the wall. From where Gernisavien was strapped to the table, she could not see if he was still breathing. The red light made it look as if he had been flayed alive.
Tall, shrouded shapes moved through the bloody dimness. When the Wizards weren’t turned her way, Gernisavien strained against the metal bands at her wrists and ankles. No use. The steel did not budge an inch. The neo-cat relaxed and inspected the steel table to which she was pinned. The smooth surface had metal gutters on the side and small drain holes. Gernisavien wondered at their purpose and then wished she hadn’t. Her heart was racing so fast that she feared it would tear its way out of her chest.
At least Dobby’s escape attempt the day before had distracted the guards long enough for Gernisavien to raise her hands, lift the key, and swallow it.
There was a movement in the shadows and the tallest of the hooded figures stepped forward into a shaft of red light. Slowly the Wizard drew back its hood. Gernisavien stared in horror at overlapping scales, a face like a mantis’s skull, great eyes that looked like pools of congealed blood, and fangs which dripped a thick mucus.
The Wizard said something that Gernisavien did not understand. Slowly it raised its bony, scaly hand. Clenched in the foul claws was a scalpel …
Less than half a mile away, Raul labored uphill through heavy snowdrifts. His hooves slipped on icy rocks. Twice he caught himself and only the strength of his massive arms allowed him to pull his body to safety. A fall now meant certain death.
The shirt Fenn had given him provided some warmth for his upper body, but the rest of him was freezing. His hands were quickly growing numb, and Raul knew that they would not save him again should he slip. What was worse, the sun was beginning to set. The centaur knew that he would not survive another night at these elevations.
If only he could find the opening!
Just as he was beginning to despair, Raul heard a rock fall below him and then a whispered curse came on the icy wind. Crawling to the edge of the snowy overhang, he looked down on two lizard guards no more than thirty feet away. They stood next to a heavy metal door that had been painted white to blend in with the snowy mountainside. The lizards wore white hoods and parkas and if it had not been for the curse, Raul would never have seen them.
The sun was down. A freezing wind swept the slopes and threw icy crystals against the centaur’s quivering flanks. Raul crouched in the snow. His frozen fingers reached for his bow and arrows.
From the estate atop the hill, the view of the river had been largely occluded by late-spring foliage. But from the wide veranda doors one could easily watch the boy and the man climbing the verdant curve of lawn. They walked slowly. The man was talking; the boy was looking up at him.
The man sat down on the grass and beckoned for the boy to do likewise. The boy shook his head and took two steps backward. The man spoke again. His hands were stretched out, fingers splayed wide. He leaned forward in an earnest gesture, but the boy took another two steps back. When the man rose, the boy turned and began walking quickly down the hill. The man took a few steps after him but stopped when the boy broke into a jog.
In less than a minute, the boy was out of sight around the bend in the railroad tracks and the man stood alone on the hill.
Kennan drove the Volvo down the narrow side street and stopped opposite Terry’s house. He sat in the car for a long minute with his hands on the steering wheel. As Kennan reached for the Volvo’s door handle, Mr. Bester came out of the house and stepped down from the high porch into the side yard. The man wore baggy bib overalls and no shirt. As he bent to peer under the house for something, his gray stubble caught the light. Kennan paused for a second and then drove on.
At two a.m. Kennan was still loading the books into cardboard cartons. As he passed in front of the screened window he thought he heard a noise from across the street. He put down the stack of books, walked to the screen, and looked down through streetlight glare and leaf shadows.
“Terry?”
There was no response. The shadows on the lawn did not move and a few minutes later Kennan resumed his packing.
He had planned to leave very early Sunday morning, but it was almost ten before the car was loaded. It was strangely cold, and a few drops of rain fell from leaden skies. His landlord was not home—in church probably—so Kennan dropped the key in his mailbox.
He drove around the town twice and past the school four times before he cursed softly and headed west on the main highway.
Traffic was very light on Interstate 55 and the few cars there tended to drive with their lights on. Occasionally rain would spatter the windshield. He stopped for breakfast on the west side of St. Louis. The waitress said that it was too late for breakfast so he had a hamburger and coffee. The storm light outside made the café seem dark and cold.
It was pouring by the time he passed through downtown St. Louis. The tricky lane changes made Kennan miss seeing the Gateway Arch as he crossed the Mississippi. The river was as gray and turbulent as the sky.
Once in Illinois, the Volvo headed east on Interstate 70, the trip settled down to the hiss of tires on wet pavement and the quick metronome of the wipers. This soon depressed Kennan and he switched on the radio. It surprised him a bit to hear the roars and shouts of the Indianapolis 500 being broadcast. He listened to it as great trucks whooshed past him in the drizzle. Within half an hour the announcer in Indianapolis was describing th
In silence he drove eastward.
On the Tuesday after Memorial Day, Mr. Kennan’s fourth graders filed into their classroom to find Mrs. Borcherding installed behind the teacher’s desk. All of them knew her from times she had substituted for their regular teachers in years past. Some of the children had known her as their first grade teacher during her last year before retirement.
Mrs. Borcherding was a swollen mass of fat, wrinkles, and wattles. Her upper arms hung loose and flapped when she gestured. Her legs were bloated masses of flesh straining against support stockings. Her arms, hands, and face were liberally sprinkled with liver spots and her whole body gave off a faint aroma of decay that soon permeated the room. The children sat with their hands folded on their desks in unaccustomed formality and faced her silently.
“Mr. Kennan has been called away,” said the apparition in a voice that seemed too phlegmy to be human. “I believe there was an illness in the family. At any rate, I will be your teacher for these last three days of school. I want it understood that I expect everyone in this class to work. It does not matter to me whether there are three days of school left or three hundred. Nor am I interested in whether you’ve had to work as hard as you should have up to now. You will do your best work right up until the time you are dismissed on Thursday afternoon. Your report cards have already been filled out, but don’t think that you can start fooling around now. Mr. Eppert has given me the authority to change grades as I see fit. And that includes conduct grades. It is still possible that some of you may have to be retained in fourth grade if I see the necessity during the next few days. Now, are there any questions? No questions? Very good, you may get out your arithmetic books for a drill.”
During morning recess, Terry was besieged with kids demanding information. He stood as mute as a rock against the crashing waves of curiosity and desperation. The one piece of information he did impart caused the children to turn and babble at one another like extras in a melodramatic crowd scene.
It was mid-afternoon before someone worked up nerve to confront Mrs. Borcherding. Naturally it was Sara who went forward. In the thick stillness of the handwriting exercise, Sara’s tiny voice was as high and urgent as a bee’s distracting buzz. Mrs. Borcherding listened, frowned, and focused her scowl on the front row as Sara went back to her seat.
“Terry Bester.”
“Yes’m,” said Terry.
“Mmmmm … Sally says that you … ahh … have something to share with us,” began Mrs. Borcherding. The class started to giggle at the mistake with Sara’s name but then froze as Mrs. Borcherding’s little eyes darted around to find the source of the noise. “All right, since the class evidently has been expecting this for some time, we will get this … story … out of the way right now and then go on to social studies.”
“No, ma’m,” said Terry softly.
“What was that?” Mrs. Borcherding looked long and hard at the boy, obviously ready to rise out of her chair at any sign of defiance. Terry sat at polite attention, his hands folded on his notebook. Only in the firm set of the thin lips was there any sign of impertinence.
“It would be convenient to get this out of the way now,” repeated the substitute.
“No, ma’am,” repeated Terry and continued quickly before the shocked fat lady could say anything. “I was told that I was s’posed to tell it on the last day. That’s Thursday. That’s what he said.”
Mrs. Borcherding stared down at Terry. She started to speak, closed her mouth with an audible snap, and then began again. “We’ll use your regular Thursday recess time. Right before clean up. Those people who wish to miss recess can stay inside to listen. The others will be allowed to go outside and play.”
“Yes, ma’am,” said Terry and returned to his handwriting drill.
Wednesday morning was hot and thick with summer. The children entered the classroom with hopeful eyes that turned to downcast glances as they spied the bulk of Mrs. Borcherding behind the desk. She rarely rose from her chair, and, as if to balance her immobility, the children were confined to their desks, Mr. Kennan’s assignment check-out cards and independent work centers abandoned.
At each recess Terry was mobbed with children seeking some small preview. Uncharacteristically for him, the attention did not seem to please him. He sought the far reaches of the playground and stood throwing pebbles at a picket fence.
Before school on Thursday, the rumor spread that Mr. Kennan’s Volvo had been seen on Main Street the night before. Monica Davis had been eating downtown at the Embers Restaurant when she was sure she had seen Mr. Kennan drive by. Sara took it upon herself to call her classmates with the information and happily accepted the reprimands from irate parents who did not appreciate early morning phone calls from fourth graders. By eight-fifteen, forty-five minutes before the bell rang, most of the class was on the playground. It was Bill who volunteered to go into the school and check out the situation.
Three minutes later he returned. One look at his crestfallen face told most of them what they needed to know.
“Well?” insisted Brad.
“It’s Borcherding,” said Bill.
“Maybe he’s not here yet,” ventured Monica, but few believed it and the girls wilted under their reprimanding stares.
When it came time to file in, reality sat before them in the same strained, purple-print dress that she had worn on Tuesday. The day dragged by with that indescribable, open-windowed languor that only the last day of school can engender. The morning was filled with busy work made all the more maddening by the echoing emptiness of the rest of the school. Most classes were gone on class picnics. Mr. Kennan had long ago outlined his plan of hiking all the way to Riverfront Park to spend the entire day in “an orgy of playing softball and eating goodies.” Specific children had volunteered to bring specific goodies. But there was no question of that now. When the students glanced up from their work to acknowledge a command from Mrs. Borcherding, there was a common look in their eyes. They shared a dawning realization that the world was not stable; that there were trapdoors to reality which could be sprung without warning. It was a lesson that all of the children instinctively had known once, but had been foolish enough to forget temporarily while encircled with the protective ring of magic.
The day crawled to noon. The class ate in the almost empty lunchroom, sharing it with only a first grade class being punished and five slobbering members of Miss Carter’s self-contained EMR class.
Shouts on the playground were strangely subdued. No one approached Terry. If he was nervous, he did not show it as he stood leaning against a tetherball pole with his arms folded.
In the afternoon they checked in their rented books—Brad and Donald had to pay for their lost or damaged books—and sat in silent rows as Mrs. Borcherding laboriously took inventory. They knew that the last hour and a half of school would consist of scrubbing desks, clearing the walls of posters, and covering the bookshelves with paper. All these activities were useless, the children knew, because in a week or two the custodians would move everything out of the room to clean again anyway. They knew that Mrs. Borcherding would wait until the last possible moment to hand out their report cards, hinting all the while that some of them did not pass—or certainly did not deserve to. They also knew that everyone would pass.
At five minutes past two, Mrs. Borcherding ponderously stood and looked at the twenty-seven children sitting silently in their strangely clean desks. Tall stacks of books surrounded them like defensive sandbags.
“All right,” said Mrs. Borcherding, “you may go out to recess.”
No one moved except Brad who stood up, looked around in confusion at his seated classmates, and then sat back down with a foolish grin. Mrs. Borcherding flushed, started to speak, checked herself, and dropped heavily into her chair.
“Terry, I believe that you had something to say,” she wheeze
“Yes’m,” said Terry and stood. He crossed to the long bulletin board and raised his hand to the triangular pattern of magic marker mountains which ran near the southern coast of the sketched-in continent. He said nothing. The children nodded silently. Terry dropped his hand and went to the front of the room. His corduroy pants made a whik-wik sound as he walked.
Once at the front of the room, he turned and faced his classmates. Sluggish currents of heat, the drone of insects, and distant shouts came through the open windows. Terry cleared his throat. His lips were white but his high, soft voice was firm as he began to speak.
Raul was up the hill from the two lizards who’re guarding the door to that place where the Wizards was keeping Dobby and Gernisavien. Remember, this was about the time that that big Wizard was getting his knife out to maybe cut Gernisavien open to get the key. Anyway, Raul’s fingers was froze, but he knew he’d have to kill the lizards real quick or he wouldn’t get a second chance. The snow was blowing all around him and it was getting dark real fast.
The lizards were hunkered over and sort of mumbling to each other. They were wearing these real thick parka-like coats and Raul knew that if he didn’t shoot just right that the arrow wouldn’t get through all that stuff. Especially if they was wearing armor too.
So Raul got two arrows out. One he stuck point first in the snow and the other he goes and notches. His hands feel like he’s wearing thick gloves but he ain’t. He’s worried that he can’t feel nothing with his fingers and maybe the arrow’ll let go too soon and that’ll tip off the lizards. But he tries not to think about that and he draws the bowstring back as far as he can. Remember, this is a special bow—it come down the clan line from his old man who was war chief of all the centaurs and nobody ’cept for Raul can pull it all the way back.