The Black Rose by Tananarive Due
Mr. Walker hardly blinked. Very slowly, he raised his fingertips to his cheek to feel the sting, then his lips rose into a small, sad smile. “Well, I’m glad that’s over with. Now maybe the air is cleared up and we can finish our talk.”
“Mr. Walker, I ain’t n-never—”
“Oh, that’s all right. I have a knack for bringing out the violent tendencies in ladies. My mama used to blame my mouth on my daddy’s side. I guess the thing is, Mrs. McWilliams, it’s up to you whether you want to see my face again, but I don’t want you to forget what I had to say.”
“You can bet on that,” Sarah said softly, steely-eyed. “You may know a heap about advertising, but you ain’t learned nothin’ about makin’ friends.”
The waiter brought their food on steaming plates, and they ate hurriedly in a strained silence. Sarah had never had prime rib and she’d been looking forward to her meal, but she barely noticed the taste of her juicy meat. She felt as if her spirits were on the floor. Now the cheerful music sounded irritating instead of pleasant.
Finally Mr. Walker sighed. “The only point I was tryin’ to make is that you need some changes, or you’ll never get out of your kitchen. Advertising can’t fix everything.”
“Thank you for the advice,” Sarah said stiffly, barely concealing her sarcasm. “And thank you for the meal. If you don’t mind, I’d like to go—”
“You do have a miracle cure, Mrs. McWilliams,” Mr. Walker said, his voice suddenly passionate, nearly pleading. “I don’t know what your hair grower can do, but I do know what that comb can do. My sister would love it. My mama would love it. And so would every lady I know. If you listen to what I’m sayin’, you can have everything you want. And I’d hate to see you walk away from that just ’cause you got your feelings hurt. In business, you need skin like leather. If what I said came out wrong, I’m sorry. But if you do this right, and you go to the right town to start, you could be as big as Poro. I promise you that.”
In that instant, Sarah suddenly realized that Charles Walker was being as sincere as he knew how. Somehow, just as she’d told Lelia before she’d left home, this man believed in her.
“You’re sayin’ … I should leave St. Louis?”
“Even David needed a rock to slay Goliath. You don’t even got a rock yet, Mrs. McWilliams. You need to start somewhere you can have a chance.”
Sarah played with that notion. Where would she go? Back to Vicksburg? No, sir. That would be going backward, as far as she was concerned. But she couldn’t stomach the idea of going somewhere she didn’t know anyone. Then the thought came to her like a bullet: Her sister-in-law and nieces lived in Denver. Alex’s widow was always writing about what a hard time she was having, and she needed help. Sarah could help Alex’s family, and they could help her.
“I don’t know what your brain is saying to you, Mrs. McWilliams, but I like the way I see it workin’,” Mr. Walker said, his lovely smile returning.
Sarah couldn’t help smiling back at him.
Once Sarah and C.J. Walker left the supper club, he drove the buggy aimlessly through the city streets as the two of them talked back and forth. He told her about his travels, his work, and his brushes with danger with whites in small Southern towns. He had educated himself, he said, and he’d been determined not to destroy his lungs mining coal the way his father had. She told him about her childhood, and how Moses had died. Then she told him about her hair problems, and how she’d struggled so hard to find a cure until she decided she needed to make one herself. They spoke in low tones, and Sarah couldn’t believe how natural it felt to talk to him. She’d heard people claim they’d met people they felt they’d known a long time, but she’d never experienced it herself until tonight. Sometimes he seemed to know what she was going to say before she even opened her mouth.
“When I first started mixing a hair cure, most folks I knew thought—”
“—You were plumb out your mind. Thought you were wasting precious time,” Mr. Walker finished, nodding as the horse clopped along the silent, moonlit street of well-kept homes. A few lights burned dimly from the windows, although it was so late that most families had retired for the night. “I know all about that.”
“Even my own sister,” Sarah said. “But we never did think the same way. Lou’s always been ready to settle for what life would give her. But not me. I figgered if other folks could do it, why not me? An’ maybe I could even do it better.”
He laughed. “Oh, yeah. That sounds like me, all right. And there’s always some fool who can’t wait to tear you down for tryin’, like those ol’ Toms who used to run back and report every little thing to Massa.”
He sounded so much like Moses! Sarah looked at this man who, suddenly, seemed to have been heaven-sent. His face was so smooth, and his lips were an unusual rosy pink beneath his trim mustache. Sitting beside him in the buggy, she could feel him breathing next to her, and his scent surrounded her. She couldn’t utter the words on her mind, so she said instead, “If you know so much about selling a business, Mr. Walker, how come you ain’t never had your own?”
“You got to have something to sell first,” he said. “I get excited when I see somethin’ I know folks will want. But making somethin’ folks want, well … that’s another story.”
“If you had yourself a partner makin’ somethin’ you got excited about, I suppose that would be your dream come true, huh?” Sarah said, thinking aloud.
“Oh, yes, ma’am. I’ve thought about it many times, and I’ve tried it, too. But it takes more than the right product to make a partner, Mrs. McWilliams, believe me. Much more.”
When the buggy finally pulled in front of Sarah’s sleeping street, she was amazed to realize that the sky was turning gray and pink at the edges, already betraying the oncoming daylight. She and Mr. Walker had stayed out nearly all night! She felt tired, but she also wished it weren’t time for the evening to end. There was so much more to say.
And Mr. Walker had told her he was leaving for Denver on the Tuesday train. What if she truly never saw him again? Her fanciful thoughts about moving to Denver to be close to her nieces and sister-in-law seemed like a very far-fetched notion as she gazed at the comfortable house she had lived in all these years, and at the street where she was known and well liked. She’d never lived in any one place so long, and she liked the security of having a home. But she also felt swamped by a sudden sadness that nearly panicked her.
“Well, Mrs. McWilliams, you’ll be ready to start buyin’ some advertising soon if you remember those things I told you,” he said. “Even the things you didn’t like.”
“Oh, I’ll remember.”
The buggy was stopped, but neither of them moved. Sarah’s heart was thundering in her breast. She thought of the beautiful high-yellow woman at the church picnic, and the octoroon in the red dress at the supper club. Were those women truly what Charles Walker wanted? Had he ever stayed up all night long talking to either of them?
Of course not, she realized. He’d probably done that with no one but her.
“C.J… . ?” she began, and his eyes brightened at the sound of his nickname. Then, letting her mind and doubts shut down, Sarah leaned over and pressed her lips to his. He was surprised, and his lips felt firm and guarded against hers at first, but then he yielded. He suddenly pulled her closer to him, tasting her with his broad tongue, and she met his with hers. A fire seemed to roar between them, and Sarah kissed him as she’d kissed no man since Moses. She held his head with her hands, pressing her fingers into his hair as their mouths played. Her body craved the warmth of his, and she didn’t even take offense when his hand brushed across her bodice. Her breasts sang beneath the promise of his touch.
Then, quickly, C.J. drew back. He was breathing hard, nearly panting, and his eyes were slitted. “I …” His mouth froze for an instant, and he paused before finishing. “… I think this is where we say good night, Mrs. McWilliams.”
Sarah’s heart tripped and sank. No, she was not what he
Still, in the instant she’d kissed him, she’d felt so sure… .
“I will think on what you said, Mr. Walker,” she said, matching his more formal address as she allowed C.J. to assist her from the buggy. “Matter of fact, I have kin in Denver. I’m thinkin’ that might make a good new home for me and my hair cure.”
C.J.’s face went slack with surprise. Satisfied with his silent reaction, Sarah turned and began to walk toward her front door at a languid pace. She didn’t turn around to wave back at him even when she reached her porch and let herself safely inside her door.
Sarah knew C.J. Walker was watching her the entire way.
Madam
Love builds… .
—MARY MCLEOD BETHUNE
Only the black woman can say, “When and where I enter, … then and there the whole race enters with me.”
—ANNA JULIA COOPER
FEBRUARY 1919
VILLA LEWARO
IRVINGTON-ON-THE-HUDSON, NEW YORK
The Long woman was in her library, Sarah was told.
Sure enough, Sarah found Lillie Long beneath a lamp in one of the gold-trimmed, upholstered Italian-style library chairs, engrossed in one of the crisp new volumes, six hundred in all, that lined the library walls. Snow flurried outside of the large window behind her guest, but the house was warm. Sarah had contacted Anna Burney Long because she needed an affidavit proving her birthplace so she could get a passport for her planned trip to France with Lelia this summer; and it had been Sarah’s idea to have her daughter bring it to her in person. I have a brand-new home, Sarah had said in her invitation. Let her visit awhile.
Miss Long looked up, startled. “Madam Walker!” she said, closing the book. “They told me you would be resting today.” She began to rise to her feet.
“No, please don’t stand,” Sarah said. “I’ll sit beside you. I’m so glad you could come.”
Miss Long’s cheeks were flushed bright red. Sarah had not seen her in nearly three years, since her visit to Delta, but if anything Miss Long looked more vital, and her hair was pinned attractively. Sarah could see traces of Missus Anna in her daughter’s eyes. She seemed like a smart girl, and it was a shame she had never married, Sarah thought. I guess marriage just ain’t for everyone these days, she thought. Lelia had been too long without a husband, too.
Miss Long’s eyes sparkled. “Madam … in Delta, you told me and Mama you had a town house. Why, when your driver met me at the train station and drove me up that long driveway … I expect I could have fainted dead away. Those columns, and the marble! This house is … a palace. I feel like I need a camera or I couldn’t even describe it to Mama.”
“Yes,” Sarah said, smiling. “I gave the town house in Harlem to my daughter. I live here now. Real country life, ain’t it? It’s too bad it’s winter and you can’t see the garden and swimming pool. You would have liked a swim.”
“Oh, but I love to read, so I like the library fine. And that music room done up in gold! I tell you, Madam Walker, I don’t think I’ve ever seen a gold-leaf grand piano in my entire life, and I think I never will again.”
Sarah nodded, examining her library. Here her tutoring had truly paid off, because Sarah had selected many of the books herself, not only for their literary value, but for their preciousness. The fine leather bindings on her bookshelves housed the works of Twain, Longfellow, Hawthorne, Cooper, Lady Jackson, Dickens, Balzac, and, of course, Shakespeare. She’d also collected complete works she would like to read when she had more time: Rousseau, Casanova, Rabelais, and Plato, among others. And her beautiful opera books! Her expen sive opera volume collection, with an introduction by Verdi himself, had cost $15,000; the fine books had morocco bindings and hand-painted plates. Then there were her Bible volumes. The Bible Lou had given Sarah in Vicksburg had a permanent home on her bedroom table upstairs, but the library had been furnished with fourteen Bible volumes specially bound in covers that were half wood and half pigskin, with pages she’d been told would never perish.
These books would outlive her, she mused, before pushing the thought away.
The villa wasn’t perfect, not at all; somehow the architect had neglected to put any drawers in the kitchen, and the garage that housed her four automobiles was leaky. But all in all, she was proud of Villa Lewaro, and she knew her parents would be proud of it, too.
This home belonged to all of them now.
“I don’t know what I’d do with myself if I woke up every day in a house like this,” Miss Long said in a dreamy voice. “One thing, I suppose I’d never leave! I might never leave this one room, in fact. I think I’d make a bed and sleep in here.”
Sarah chuckled. “Guess you could at that.”
“I’ve been thinking about what you did, starting a business, and I can’t think of one other woman in the whole world who’s done what you’ve done. Not just colored women, mind you—white women, either. The papers say you’re worth a million dollars! All the well-to-do white women I’ve heard of inherited their money or got it through marriage. How do you account for it, Madam Walker?”
“Oh, I had help, child,” Sarah said. “Like my brother Alex used to say, if you see a turtle a-sittin’ on top of a fence post, you know he didn’t get up there by himself. Believe me … I had help.”
Chapter Nineteen
JULY 1905
DENVER, COLORADO
Until the day Sarah boarded a train at Union Station in St. Louis and traveled nine hundred and thirty miles to a train station of the same name in the mountainside city of Denver, Colorado, she hardly believed she was really going to leave. Neither did anyone else she knew, Lelia most of all. You’re going to give up everything in your life to chase after some man? Lelia had asked, as if their roles as mother and daughter were reversed.
Lelia was right about one thing: it would be foolish to leave St. Louis because of C.J. Walker, and she knew it. His only communication with her since he’d left had been a maddeningly polite answer to her letter thanking him for his advice. In his note, he hadn’t asked whether she was moving to Denver, and she guessed he might not care if she did. But while the other reasons to go were few, they were compelling: Poro. Family. Make a change. Of all those reasons, the one that gave her the most resolve was the last.
Even before C.J. Walker said a word to her about leaving St. Louis, Sarah had begun to wonder herself if it wasn’t time to move on. She’d lived in the city as a washerwoman for so long, it was hard for anyone to imagine her as anything else. Now she was nearly thirty-eight years old, and maybe moving to Denver would give her and her business a boost. It was impossible to explain to Sadie, Rosetta, and even Lelia, but Sarah finally decided to leave.
“Oh, Mama, please don’t make me go, too,” Lelia had begged when she realized Sarah had made her decision. “Hazel’s family has room enough for me to move in, and I’ll find work. I don’t have to go start my whole life over again in a place I don’t know.”
Fine, Sarah had told her, although she was hurt because she longed for her daughter’s support. So far, in all these years, Lelia had been the only one who listened to Sarah’s ideas with barely a blink, encouraging her at every step. Now she’d lost that, too. At least for now.
By the time Sarah had paid her expenses and train fare, she was alarmed that she had only a paltry $1.50 left in her handbag. And, just as before, she owned very little of real value to her: the Bible from Lou, her framed photograph of her father, Lelia’s high-school diploma, her letters, and the precious steel comb. But that was all she needed, she figured. Eve
The day before she left St. Louis, C.J.’s polite response to her second letter finally arrived, answering her questions about potential employment. She’d told him she would prefer cooking jobs to washing—if she never saw another washtub in her life, it would be too soon to suit her—so he sent her a newspaper page with ads for people searching for cooks. He’d circled one ad in particular, from a man named E.L. Scholtz, scribbling in the margin that Mr. Scholtz was one of the leading businessmen in Denver, and C.J. would put in a good word for her. He has a pharmacy, C.J. had written, which made Sarah’s spirits rise. A pharmacy! Who better to work for than someone who was familiar with chemicals?
Sarah took that as a sign from God that she had done the right thing. C.J. still hadn’t mentioned that he would be happy to see her, but at least he was being helpful. Maybe that was all he’d been brought into her life to do, she thought. She vowed not to raise her hopes about how much she would be seeing of C.J. Walker.
Union Station in St. Louis was a monstrous stone structure modeled after a French château, humming with activity. Walking through the belly of the station in search of her train with a suitcase that felt more impossibly heavy with each step, Sarah spotted a porter in a white coat curled in a corner with his eyes focused on a book in his lap. He looked so studious that the sight of him transfixed her. Here’s someone like me, she thought.
The porter looked like he was Lelia’s age, with a handsome face and rich brown-red skin. Sarah walked to the boy, who looked up, startled, when her shadow blocked the light he’d been reading by. He slammed his book shut. “M-my shift doesn’t start for an hour, ma’am—” he began, but Sarah’s wide smile told him she hadn’t come over to scold him for laziness.