The Fates Divide by Veronica Roth
"Ryzek was killed," Akos replied. "You felt that?"
"Did you do it?" Eijeh asked with a sneer. "Wouldn't be surprised. You killed Suzao. You killed Kalmev."
"And Vas," Akos said. "You've got Vas somewhere in that memory stew, don't you?"
"He was a friend," Eijeh said.
"He was the man who killed our father," Akos spat.
Eijeh squinted, and said nothing.
"What about me?" Sifa said, voice flat. "Do you remember me, Eijeh?"
He looked at her like he had only just noticed she was there. "You're Sifa." He frowned. "You're Mom. I don't--there's gaps."
He stepped toward her and said, "Did I love you?"
Akos had never seen Sifa look hurt before, not even when they were younger and told her they hated her because she wouldn't let them go out with friends, or scolded them for bad scores on tests. He knew she got hurt, because she was a person as well as an oracle, and all people got hurt sometimes. But he wasn't quite ready for how the look pierced him, when it came, the furrowed brow and downturned mouth.
Did I love you? Akos knew, hearing those words, that he had definitely failed. He hadn't gotten Eijeh out of Shotet, as he had promised his father before he died. This wasn't really Eijeh, and what might have restored him was gone, now that Ryzek was dead.
Eijeh was gone. Akos's throat got tight.
"Only you can know," Sifa said. "Do you love me now?"
Eijeh twitched, made an aborted hand gesture. "I--maybe."
"Maybe." Sifa nodded. "Okay."
"You knew, didn't you. That I was the next oracle," he said. "You knew I would be kidnapped. You didn't warn me. You didn't get me ready."
"There are reasons for that," she said. "I doubt you would find any of them comforting."
"Comfort." Eijeh snorted. "I have no need for comfort."
He sounded like Ryzek then--that Shotet diction, put into Thuvhesit.
"But you do," Sifa said. "Everybody does."
Another snort, but no answer.
"Come here to drug me again, did you?" He nodded to Akos. "That's what you're good for, right? You're a poison-maker. And Cyra's whore."
Then Akos's hands were in fists in Eijeh's worn shirt, lifting him up, so his toes were just brushing the floor. He was heavy, but not too heavy for Akos, with the energy that burned inside him, energy that had nothing to do with the current.
Akos slammed him into the wall and growled, "Shut. Your. Mouth."
"Stop, both of you," Sifa said, her hand on Akos's shoulder. "Put him down. Now. If you can't stay calm, you'll have to leave."
Akos dropped Eijeh and stepped back. His ears were ringing. He hadn't meant to do that. Eijeh slid to the floor, and ran his hands over his buzzed head.
"I am not sure what Ryzek Noavek dumping his memories into your skull has to do with being so cruel to your brother," Sifa said to Eijeh. "Unless it's just the only way you know how to be, now. But I suggest you learn another way, and quickly, or I will devise a very creative punishment for you, as your mother and your superior, the sitting oracle. Understand?"
Eijeh looked her over for a few ticks, then his chin shifted, up and down, just a little.
"We are going to land in a few days," Sifa said. "We will keep you locked in here until our descent, at which point we will ensure you are safely strapped in with the rest of us. When we land, you will be my charge. You will do as I say. If you don't, I will have Akos drug you again. Our situation is too tenuous to risk you wreaking havoc." She turned to Akos. "How does that plan sound to you?"
"Fine," he said, teeth gritted.
"Good." She forced a smile that was completely without feeling. "Would you like anything to read while you're in here, Eijeh? Something to pass the time?"
"Okay," Eijeh said with a half shrug.
"I'll see what I can find."
She stepped toward him, making Akos tense up in case she needed his help. But Eijeh didn't stir as she picked up his empty tray, and he didn't look up at either of them when they left the room. Akos locked it behind him, and checked the handle twice to make sure the lock held. He was breathing fast. That was the Eijeh he remembered from Shotet, the one who walked around with Vas Kuzar like they were born friends instead of born enemies, and the one who held him down while Vas forced Cyra to torture him.
His eyes burned. He shut them.
"Had you seen him that way?" he said. "In visions, I mean."
"Yes," Sifa said, quiet.
"Did it help? To know it was coming?"
"It's not as straightforward as you think," she said. "I see so many paths, so many versions of people. . . . I'm always surprised to discover which future has come to pass. I am still not sure which Akos I am speaking to, for example. There are many that you could be."
She lapsed into quiet, and sighed.
"No," she said, finally. "It didn't help."
"I--" He gulped, and opened his eyes, not looking at his mother, but at the wall opposite him. "I'm sorry I couldn't stop it. I--I failed him."
"Akos--" She gripped his shoulder, and he let himself feel the warmth and the strength of her hand for a tick.
The cell that had held Ryzek was scrubbed clean, like nothing had ever happened. In some secret part of himself, he wished Eijeh had died, too. It would be easier than this, the constant reminder of how he'd messed it all up, and couldn't fix it.
"There's nothing you--"
"Don't," he said, more harshly than he meant to. "He's gone. And now there's nothing left to do but--bear it."
He turned, and left her standing there, caught between two sons who weren't quite the same as they used to be.
They took turns sitting on the nav deck to make sure the ship didn't steer straight into an asteroid or another spaceship or some other piece of debris. Sifa had the first shift, since Teka was exhausted from reprogramming the ship in the first place, and Cyra had spent the last several hours mopping up her own brother's blood. Akos cleared the floor of the galley and rolled out a blanket in the corner, near the medical supplies.
Cyra came to join him, her face scrubbed shiny and her hair in a braid over one shoulder. She lay shoulder to shoulder with him, and for a time neither of them said anything at all, just breathed in time together. It reminded him of being in her quarters on the sojourn ship, how he could always hear when she was up because the tossing and turning stopped and all he could hear were her breaths.
"I'm glad he's dead," Cyra said.
He turned to face her, propping himself up on one elbow. She had trimmed the hair neatly around the silverskin. He'd gotten used to it now, shining on one side of her head like a mirror. It suited her, really, even if he hated what had happened to her.
Her jaw was set. She started on the straps of the armor that covered her arm, working them back and forth until they were loose. When she shucked it, there was a new cut on her arm, right near her elbow, with a hash through it. He touched it, lightly, with a fingertip.
"You didn't kill him," he said to her.
"I know," she said. "But the chancellor isn't going to take note of him, and . . ." She sighed. "I guess I could have gotten some revenge from beyond death, if I had let him go unmarked. Dishonored him by pretending he never existed."
"But you couldn't do that," Akos supplied.
"I couldn't," Cyra agreed. "He's still my brother. His life is still . . . notable."
"And you're upset that you couldn't punish him."
"Sort of."
"Well, if my opinion counts for anything, I don't think you need to regret showing some mercy," he said. "I'm just sorry you went to all the trouble of sparing him for me, and then . . . it didn't even matter."
With a heavy sigh, he slumped to the ground again. Just another way that he'd failed.
She laid a hand on him, right over his sternum, right over his heart, with the scarred arm that said so much and so little about her at once.
"I'm not," she said. "Sorry, I mean."
"Well." He c
The corners of her mouth twitched up. He was surprised to find that she had chipped off a little piece of his guilt, and he wondered if he'd done the same for her, in his way. They were both people who carried every scrap of everything around, but maybe they could help each other set things down, piece by piece.
It was good he felt this way, he thought. With Eijeh gone, all that he had left to do was meet his fate, and Cyra and his fate were inextricable. He would die for the family Noavek, and she was the last of them. She was a happy inevitability, brilliant and unavoidable.
Acting on impulse, Akos turned and kissed her. She stuck her fingers in one of his belt loops and pulled him tight against her, the way they had been earlier, when they were interrupted. But the door was closed, now, and Teka was fast asleep in some other part of the ship.
They were alone. Finally.
The chemical-floral smell of the ship was replaced with the smell of her, of the herbal shampoo she'd last used in the ship's shower, and sweat and sendes leaf. He ran potion-stained fingertips down the side of her throat and across the faint curve of her collarbone.
She pushed him over, so she was straddling him, and pinned his hips down for a tick, just to tug his shirt out from under his waistband. Her hands were so warm against him he could hardly breathe. They found the soft give of flesh around his middle, the taut muscle wrapped around his ribs. She undid buttons all the way up to his throat.
He'd thought of this when he helped her take her clothes off before that bath in the renegade safehouse, how it might be to take off their clothes when they weren't injured and fighting for their lives. He'd imagined something frantic, but she was taking her time, running her fingers over the bumps of his ribs, the tendons on the inside of his wrists as she freed the buttons on his cuffs, the bones that stuck out of his shoulders.
When he tried to touch her back, she pressed him away. That wasn't how she wanted it just then, it seemed like, and he was happy to give her what she wanted. She was the girl who couldn't touch people, after all. It sparked something inside him to know that he was the only one she'd done this with--not excitement, but something softer. Tender.
She was his only--and fate said she would be his last.
She pulled back to look at him, and he tugged at the hem of her shirt.
"May I?" he said.
She nodded.
He felt suddenly tentative as he started undoing her shirt buttons, from throat to waist. He sat up just enough to kiss the skin he revealed, izit by izit. Soft skin, for someone so strong, soft over hard muscle and bone and steely nerve.
He tipped them over, so he was leaning over her, leaving just enough space between them to feel her warmth without touching her. He stripped his shirt from his shoulders, and kissed her stomach again. He'd run out of shirt to unbutton.
He touched his nose to the inside of her hip and looked up at her.
"Yes?" he said.
"Yes," she said roughly.
His hands closed over her waistband, and he ran parted lips over the skin he exposed, izit by izit.
CHAPTER 7: CISI
THE ASSEMBLY SHIP IS the size of a small planet, wide and round as a floater but so much bigger it's downright alarming. It fills the windows of the little patrol ship that picked up our escape pod, made of glass and smooth, pale metal.
"You've never seen it before?" Isae asks me.
"Only images," I say.
Its clear glass panels reflect the currentstream where it burns pink, and emptiness where it doesn't. Little red lights along the ship's borders blink on and off like inhales and exhales. Its movements around the sun are so slight it looks still.
"It's different in images," I say. "Much less impressive."
"I spent three seasons here as a child." Isae's knuckles skim the glass. "Learning how to be proper. I had that brim accent--they didn't like that."
I smile. "You still do, sometimes, when you forget to care. I like it."
"You like it because the brim accent is so much like your Hessan one." She pokes her fingertip into my dimple, and I smack it away.
"Come on," she says. "Time to dock."
The ship's captain, a squat little man with sweat dotting his forehead, noses his little ship toward the massive Assembly one--to secure entrance B, I'd heard him say. The letter was painted above the doors, reflective. Two metal panels pull apart under the B, and an enclosed walkway reaches for our ship's hatch. Hatch and walkway lock together with a hiss. Another crew member seals the connection with the pull of a lever.
We all stand by the hatch doors as they open, making way for Isae to stand at the fore. It's a skeleton patrol crew that picked us up, meant to cruise around the middle band of the solar system in case someone's in trouble--or making it. There's just a captain, a first officer, and two others on board with us, and they don't talk much. Likely because their Othyrian isn't strong--they sound like Trellans to me when they do speak.
I skip ahead into the bright tunnel beyond the hatch doors to catch up to Isae. The glass walls are so clean. I feel like I'm floating in nothingness for a tick, but the floor holds firm.
I just make it to Isae's side when a group of official-looking people in pale gray uniforms greets us. At their sides are nonlethal channeling rods, designed to stun, not kill. The sight is reassuring. This is how things should be--controlled but not dangerous.
The one in front, with a row of medals on his chest, bows to Isae.
"Hello, Chancellor," he says in crisp Othyrian. "I am Captain Morel. The Assembly Leader has been informed of your arrival, and your quarters have been prepared, as well as those of your . . . guest."
Isae smooths her sweater down like that's going to get the folds out of it.
"Thank you, Captain Morel," she says, all traces of brim accent gone. "May I introduce Cisi Kereseth, a family friend from the nation-planet of Thuvhe."
"A pleasure," Captain Morel says to me.
I let my gift unfold right away. It's just instinct, at this point. Most people react well when I think of my currentgift as a blanket falling over their shoulders, and Captain Morel is no exception--he relaxes right in front of me, and his smile softens, like he actually means it. I think it works on Isae, too, for the first time in days. She looks a little softer around the eyes.
"Captain Morel," I say. "Thank you for the welcome."
"Allow me to escort you to your quarters," he says. "Thank you for delivering Chancellor Benesit safely here, sir," he adds to the captain who brought us here.
The man grunts a little, and nods at Isae and me as we turn to go.
Captain Morel's shoes snap when he walks, and when he turns corners, they slide a little as the balls of his feet twist into the floor. If he's here, it's because he was born into a rich family on whatever his home planet is, but doesn't have the disposition--or the stomach--for actual military service. He's just right for tasks like these, which require manners and diplomacy and polish.
When the captain delivers me to my room--right next to Isae's, for convenience--I sigh with relief. After the door shuts behind me, I let my jacket slide off my shoulders and fall to my feet.
The rooms have been set for us, clearly. That's the only explanation for the field of feathergrass, twitching in the wind, on the far wall. It's footage of Thuvhe. Right in front of it is a narrow bed with a thick brown blanket tucked around the mattress.
I put a hand on the touch panel near the door, flicking images and text forward until I find the one I want. Wall footage. I scroll until I find one of Hessa in the snow. The top of the hill sparkles red from the domed roof of the temple. I follow the bumps of house roofs all the way to the bottom of the hill, watching weather vanes spin as I do. All the buildings are hidden behind a white haze of snowflakes.
Sometimes I forget how beautiful my home is.
I see just the corner of the fields my dad farmed
I hadn't thought of Eijeh and Akos as lost, truly lost, until then. If Mom was burning the pyres, I thought, that must mean she knew they were dead, in the way only an oracle could know things. But she hadn't known nearly as much as I thought.
I fall to the bed and stare up at the snow.
Maybe it wasn't smart to come here, to contend with a chancellor instead of following my own family. I don't know much about politics or government--I'm Hessa-born, so far out of my realm of knowledge it's almost funny. But I know Thuvhe. I know people.
And someone needs to look out for Isae before she loses herself in grief.
Isae's wall just looks like a window to space. Stars all glinting, little pricks of light, and the bend and swell of the currentstream. It reminds me of a fight we had, early on, before I knew her better.
You know nothing about my planet and its people, I said to her then. It was after she had gone public as chancellor. She and Ori had shown up at my apartment at school, and she had been rude to me for being so familiar with her sister. And for some reason, my currentgift had let me be rude back. This is only your first season on its soil.
The broken look she gave me then is a lot like the one she's giving me now, as I walk into her quarters--twice the size of the ones given to me, but that's not surprising. She sits on the end of her bed in an undershirt and underwear that's really just a pair of shorts clinging to her long, skinny legs. It's more casual than I've ever seen her before, and more vulnerable, somehow, like letting me see her right after waking ripped her open somehow.
All my life I have loved this planet, more fervently than my family or my friends or even myself, she had replied back then. You have walked all your seasons on its skin, but I have buried myself deep in its guts, so don't you dare tell me that I don't know it.
The thing about Isae is, her outer shell is so thick I don't always believe there's something under it. She's not like Cyra Noavek, who lets you see everything writhing just out of reach, or like Akos, whose emotions glitter in his eyes like precious metal caught in the bottom of a pan. Isae is just blank.