The Street of a Thousand Blossoms by Gail Tsukiyama
Instead of forgetting the troubles of the old year, they worried about the ongoing war. On New Year’s Eve, they listened for the Joya-no-Kane, the traditional gongs, struck one hundred and eight times with a wooden log in the Buddhist temples and shrines. Ever since they were little, his obaachan had told them it was to drive away the 108 hindrances that each person carried. What’s a hindrance? he had asked. His grandmother called them evil thoughts. The gong was struck until the morning light of the New Year appeared.
“What are these evil thoughts?” Kenji asked his ojiichan every year. To think badly of others? To lie to your grandparents? To cheat on an exam? To steal? To touch yourself until you’re excited? Was Hiroshi evil because of his stealing, even if it was to help his family? Kenji didn’t want to admit that he was already guilty of some evil thoughts. Still, he believed there was no greater evil than the kempeitai. What could be more evil than hitting women, stealing food from those who had so little, and burning defenseless animals alive? Kenji shook away the thought, and the acrid stench that he still smelled.
“All that it means to be human,” his ojiichan always answered.
“But that doesn’t answer my question,” Kenji persisted this time. He wanted real answers. “And aren’t some evil thoughts much worse than others?”
His grandfather laughed and nodded. “Yes, Kenji-chan, but we’re talking of the small evils that we hold in our hearts. You know the answers, deep inside, when you’ve had a bad thought, or said something wrong to hurt another person.”
Kenji breathed a sigh of relief. Well, it wasn’t so bad then—evil thoughts came in all shapes and sizes. Surely he and Hiroshi must fall into the “small evil” category.
Every New Year, when Kenji heard the resonant brass gong being struck, he felt each evil hindrance rise from his mind and body, leaving him with a feeling of weightlessness. This year, there was only a suffocating silence. The kempeitai wouldn’t allow the traditional striking of the gong to interfere with their blackout rules and disrupt communications. And though no one said a word, Kenji now knew that the old evils of the previous year would remain in Yanaka. He saw the same sad recognition in his obaachan’s face as she stood and walked slowly up the stairs to bed.
Invisibility
Six-year-old Aki awaited the Joya-no-Kane, the thing she loved most about New Year’s Eve. Like last year, she would lie in bed next to Haru and count each strike of the gong until she fell into a deep sleep. The rhythmic lullaby rang on into early morning. But this year there were no gongs and Aki couldn’t sleep. She whispered Haru’s name but her steady breathing told her she was already asleep. Thoughts didn’t run wild in her sister’s head and keep her awake as they did Aki. Never mind, Haru would only tell her to close her eyes and count to fifty … ichi, ni, san, shi …and she would soon be asleep. Just what Aki didn’t want to hear. She lay perfectly still, tried to conjure up the gong’s reverberation in her head as in previous years, but it was no use, there was only silence.
Aki pulled away from the warmth of her sleeping sister and rose slowly from the futon, quietly slipping on her sandals. Things were different now than they were last New Year’s, and not just because all the big boys had left the stable. Even her parents were acting strange lately. Her mother jumped at every sound and never had energy to play with her. And her father never stayed at home for long. When he did, he sat alone in his office at the stable, or stood and stared at the empty dohyo in the keikoba.
No one would tell Aki what was wrong. Even Haru avoided her questions. Just that morning, as they finished their watery congee, Aki had asked, “What’s wrong with Mother and Father? What’s happening?”
“We’re at war,” Haru calmly answered like an adult. “We’re trying to find our place in the world,” she added.
“Isn’t our place right here at the stable?”
Haru shook her head, “You’re too young to understand these things,” she answered. Aki looked at her pleadingly. She could understand if Haru explained. But the grave, serious look on her sister’s face told Aki to stay quiet.
Aki tiptoed out of their room and into the hallway. She paused a moment at a strange sound coming from the courtyard, a distant moan. Could it be a cat? Her parents had told her over and over she was never to leave the house after dark, but Aki thought if she counted to fifty, she could be outside and back again before anyone knew. Ichi, ni, san, shi… She passed her parents’ dark and quiet room and was down the hall. Go, roku, nana, hachi… She was almost at the front door. It wouldn’t hurt to just take a peek outside. What if the kitten needed help? Father would be proud that she checked. Kyu, ju, juichi, juni… Aki reached down and unlatched the lock, slid the door open slowly, slowly, so she wouldn’t wake anyone up, just enough to take a look and listen to where the whimpering sounds were coming from. She poked her head outside. The night air was icy and felt like glass. There was the moan again, not like a cat sound exactly. Perhaps it was another animal that needed help. Jusan, juyon, jugo… One step after another and Aki was in the courtyard, the scratching of her sandals making too much noise, so she lifted her feet higher and moved quietly. The sound again. It was coming from the other side of the courtyard, near the stable where Hoku, the stable caretaker, stayed. Juroku, junana, juhachi…
Aki stopped when she saw the shadow, something pressed against the wall—big and dark. It was moving back and forth and the whimpering moan was coming from it. Aki became invisible. Ever since she could remember, she turned invisible when something frightened her. Now, no one saw her, not the dark obake, not the big monster that leaned back and moaned.
Then all at once, there were two shadows. Aki turned around and ran back to the house, her sandals clacking against the stone walkway. “Who’s there?” a voice shot through the cold air. It sounded like Hoku but Aki didn’t stop to find out. She slipped into the house and latched the shoji door behind her. Quickly, she retraced her steps down the hallway to her and Haru’s room and fell onto the futon. Breathing hard, she moved toward her sister’s warmth. Only then did Aki make herself visible again. She closed her eyes and began counting to fifty from the beginning: ichi, ni, san, shi…
6
The Past and the Present
1943
Yoshio leaned against the wooden post of the tower, sucked on his pipe, and let the smoke drift, floating upward into the wet April evening. Since the “Sacred War” showed no signs of coming to an end, he only smoked once in a while now, usually after dinner. Tobacco, along with everything else, was almost impossible to obtain, even with ration coupons, or when possible through the black market. It was a luxury, usually hoarded and kept in a tin can with a box of matches beneath one of the kitchen floorboards, along with Fumiko’s wedding ring, her silver pin, and pearl earrings wrapped in a silk scarf. He inhaled again, tasting hints of vanilla and cinnamon on his tongue, savoring it.
For the past week, Yoshio had been living his life completely in the dark, though he kept it to himself, not wanting Fumiko to worry further or to disrupt the boys’ lives any more than the war and rationing already had. He took another puff from his pipe, remembered the scatter of glowing lights from neighboring houses, the night air filled with floating voices. Blindness mattered little, since the blacked-out windows and air-raid curtains scarcely let a sliver of light seep out. His face turned upward to the wide canvas of dark sky. He mourned the absence of moonlight. Since February, he’d strained to see any faint glow that might be a star, any remnant of moonlight. Now he could no longer see if there were stars in the sky, something he’d once loved to do with Fumiko when the boys were little and asleep. She loved stargazing. “They never leave,” she had whispered to him. “They may hide behind the clouds but I know they’re always there.” For Yoshio, those stars would forever hide behind the clouds and he would have to learn to believe with the same faith that Fumiko had. They were there.
Now that Yoshio was completely blind, it made less difference than he expected. In many ways it wa
It had been a difficult day and his thoughts simmered. Since the rumors of heavy Japanese losses at Midway and Guadalcanal, followed by the destruction of the entire Japanese convoy at the Battle of Bismarck Sea, which he learned about through a letter his friend Taiko had received from his son, Yoshio felt that the tide had turned for his country, even as radio broadcasts proclaimed otherwise. It was just a matter of time, he thought.
Okata from the neighborhood association now came by once a week, expecting each household to donate anything that would help with the war effort. Rumors circulated around the neighborhood that the Okata household lacked for nothing—there was always ample rice on his table; payment for his scavenging for the military. And each week he seemed to be more aggressive. Yoshio had never liked Okata; he was the kind of man who always needed to be noticed.
So when Okata came from down the street at noontime today, Yoshio was already agitated. He was glad the boys were at school. His neighbor’s insistence upon coming in somehow frightened him. Okata immediately bragged about the Buddhist temple bells and altar brass that were donated to him just that morning for the metal drive, and how the authorities would be pleased.
“Yes,” Yoshio had said. “And we know how important it is to please the military.”
Okata had let the remark pass; without a pause, he’d added that Oda-san down the street had donated his entire tool set.
In that same moment, Yoshio remembered Fumiko had forgotten to take off her gold wedding ring. He had felt it when he brushed across her hand at breakfast. Usually, she removed it every morning in case there was a surprise visit from Okata, but she liked to put it back on when they went to bed. “It’s hard to sleep without it,” she’d said, just last night.
Okata had caught sight of it, too. “Ah, your gold ring, Fumiko-san! You must be so proud to be able to serve our nation by donating it.” Yoshio could hear the greedy smile in Okata’s voice. “Every little thing will lead to our nation’s victory.”
Yoshio heard a whisper of reply from Fumiko, the sharp intake of breath as she twisted the ring off her finger, followed by the slow release of air, as if she were deflating.
“Okata-san,” he said quickly, without thought. “I’m sure one small ring won’t do much to help the nation.”
In the silence, he felt Okata staring at him, judging him, deciding what this meant for him to oppose the neighborhood authorities.
“Yoshio-san is just being a sentimental old man,” Fumiko interjected. “What does a ring matter, a small piece of metal that can be easily replaced when our nation is victorious.”
Then Okata laughed loudly, “Yes, Yoshio, this is not the time to be sentimental. Our nation needs all our help until victory is achieved.”
Yoshio remained silent, barely able to swallow. It was Fumiko who bravely carried on, giving Okata another iron pot and a silver hair ornament, her voice light and animated, never once revealing her grief.
Standing high in his tower, sucking on his pipe, Yoshio let go of the day’s difficulties until he felt as if he were far away from all that troubled him. A mild wind stroked his face; he closed his eyes to his memories. Their story, Fumiko’s and his, had begun with a dance. He smiled at the thought of his body once being so limber, so full of power and vanity. He had grown up on the sea coast of Hokkaido—in the port town of Hakodate—and Fumiko, in the larger city of Sapporo. Yoshio always believed people who lived by the sea carried within them a lighter, more fluid water spirit. His father had been a fisherman and Fumiko’s a shopkeeper, humble people who never wanted more from life than to provide for their families. Still, Fumichan had always been a big-city girl in his eyes.
Fumiko had an aunt, uncle, and cousin who lived in Hakodate and she spent several summers there with them. Yoshio first saw her at the Bon Odori during Obon, when everyone in town gathered together to dance in honor of the spirits of the dead. The raised platform of the yagura was set up in the middle of the dance grounds, a taiko drum on it. Men, women, and children danced around the yagura to the rhythmic beat of the drum, the clicking of bamboo sticks, the raised fans, the simple, repetitive steps, each executed in the pure expression of joy, free of their usual shame or inhibitions. Yoshio had begun dancing at the Bon Odori as a little boy, adapting to the steps with ease and grace. Every year he joined the circle and felt the lightness of the spirits inhabit his body.
And the colors. Once again they soared through his darkness—the red, green, and yellow lanterns strung from the yagura high above their heads, matched by the patchwork kimonos and the round bamboo and parchment fans that floated in the air like white masks. The first time he saw Fumiko was the summer she was fifteen—a white blossom in her black hair, wearing a yellow yukata kimono, walking carefully on her cloglike wooden geta. Seeing Fumiko struck him like a bright flash of lightning, a surge of energy. The lanterns cast a bright glow over everything as he watched her across the circle. The rhythmic beating of the taiko drum began, each step-beat, step-beat became his heart pounding. At seventeen, he was frightened and astounded. So, this was love. Yoshio followed Fumiko in the dance around the circle, trailing the yellow of her kimono, the white flower that peeked in and out from the crowd, the beckoning of her fan—the step-beat that he still felt now. She moved as if she were floating, as if the lightness in her step reached up and met his. Four years later, he had saved enough for the gold ring, even before their families sat down for the marriage negotiations.
Now he heard Fumiko down in the kitchen cleaning up after their meager dinner, the flow of water echoing against the hollow kettle, the clinking of rice bowls in the hot water, her low, soothing hum that still gave him comfort after forty years of marriage. Yoshio turned toward the sounds and smiled in his new sightlessness. Then carefully, with a calm assurance, he took the first step back down to her.
The Ring
Fumiko poured the rest of the boiling water into the sink to rinse the last of the bowls. Her thoughts rose with the steam, which clouded her vision, and her soft humming became a choking sob. Did Yoshio think she was a fool? That she wouldn’t know he’d completely lost his sight? They had been married so long that she knew what he’d do even before he did it. It was as subtle as the arrangement of stones in a garden—the increased time he spent alone up in the watchtower, the way he no longer looked but tilted his head to listen, even the way that he touched her felt different, as if he were seeing with his hands. She knew. It was a marriage that hadn’t faltered in forty years, despite the heartache of losing Misako and the raising of their grandsons. They had lived two separate lifetimes together, nurtured two families, and even with the hardships of war and rationing, she never felt their family strength waver. But the moment she slipped the ring off her finger and handed it to Okata, Fumiko experienced a shiver along the back of her neck, the breath of a bad omen. In that instant, she knew Japan would never win the war and that even greater sacrifices would follow. If even a small sliver of gold from a ring was needed, what hope was left?
Since midday, a silent rage had smoldered inside of her. She tried to calm herself by sewing the padded head coverings they were instructed to wear during air raids, and writin
She looked up when she heard Yoshio coming down the stairs, rubbed her eyes so he wouldn’t know she’d been crying, then remembered that it was the quality of her voice she had to control now. Could she find the right balance between fear and hate? She watched him pause at the bottom of the stairs, and then take the five steps to his chair by the table.
“Tea?” she asked, her voice steady and controlled.
He nodded, looking pale in the dim light. “It’s a calm night.”
“Best to enjoy them while we can,” she said, regretting the ominous undercurrent.
Yoshio looked at her, squarely in the face, as if he could still see her. “They are numbered,” he agreed.
After a moment of silence, Fumiko said, “Perhaps we should discuss Reiko-san’s offer?”
“Hai,” he answered quietly.
Fumiko knew that a number of families from the neighborhood had begun to evacuate to the safety of the countryside to wait out the war. But until that moment, they hadn’t spoken seriously about sending the boys to his niece and her family outside of Nagano.