The Will by Kristen Ashley
He knew she’d been in love with her boss for years. Lydie told him. The same that Gagnon had been in love with her. Lydie told him that too. So Jake had no idea which way this would go.
Seeing as Gagnon was everything she wanted in a man and she’d wanted him for decades, if he was to guess, she’d pull open that door and go running after him, leaving Jake behind.
So that was why he stayed still. Tense and still. Waiting for her to gut him.
Therefore he was shocked as shit when she didn’t throw open the door. He watched as her head slowly turned to him and her dazed eyes in her pained face moved over his body before they caught his.
Her voice was also pained and dazed when she asked, “Why are you all the way over there?”
He wasn’t all the way over anywhere. He was four feet away.
But he got what she was saying, he fucking liked what she was saying, he felt his neck relax, his gut stopped twisting, and he dropped his arms to go to her.
She beat him to it. Turning and rushing him, she slammed into him full force, wrapping her arms around him and bursting into tears.
No.
Fuck no.
If he would have guessed, this was not the way he thought it would go.
But he wasn’t Henry Gagnon. No way he was going to waste the opportunity of what she was giving him.
So he bent and picked her up in his arms. When he had her there she shoved her face in his neck, wrapped her arms tight around his shoulders and he felt her body shudder repeatedly with her sobs.
He carried her to the family room, sat on the couch, putting her in his lap. He twisted them and took them down so they were stretched out and he had her trapped against the back, his body mostly on hers.
He knew she didn’t feel trapped. She wanted more. And he knew this because she burrowed into him and held on tight.
Jake stroked her hair as he whispered, “Shh, baby.”
Her body bucked and she hiccupped, pressing deeper.
“Shh, Josie. Get a handle on it. Man who talks that way to you is not worth this.”
She pulled her face out of his neck, trained her wet eyes on him and cried, “But he’s my friend!”
He shook his head. “He’s a shit for brains dick who didn’t have the balls to work for what he wanted but does have the balls to be pissed at you for not giving it to him. He’s not your friend. He’s an asshole.”
She didn’t agree or disagree. She was in her own head and probably not listening to a thing he said. He knew this when she went on and did it loudly.
“It’s ridiculous for him to say he loved me. He hit on women right in front of me.” She paused before she said, nearly in a shout. “Successfully! At least I was discreet!”
He did not want to discuss her being discreet. He actually didn’t want to be doing this at all.
But she was lying on her couch pressed to him and not running after that asshole.
And she needed him.
So he was going to do it.
Jake slid a hand to her jaw and dipped his face close. “You seriously didn’t know he was into you?” he asked gently.
“Absolutely not,” she snapped.
“Lydie did.”
She stopped crying abruptly as well as nearly shouting and blinked. “She did?”
“Didn’t want him for you.”
Her eyes got wide. “She didn’t?”
“No, baby. A man whose play for over twenty years was to try to make you jealous enough to make your own play?” He shook his head. “Fuck no. Lydie liked him as a person, as your boss, but she did not want him for you. She knew the guy who got in there with you had to give a shit enough to do the work because she knew you’re worth the effort.”
Her lips had parted, her eyes got big again and she stared.
Then, thank fuck, it dawned.
He saw it on her face and he knew it when she repeated quietly, “Give a shit enough to do the work.”
“Yeah,” he confirmed, wrapping both arms around her and sliding under her so she was mostly on top. “’Cause you’re worth it,” he finished.
She stared down at him for a long time before he felt her body relax, saw her eyes warm and her face get soft.
Then she declared, “I need a Kleenex.”
He grinned up at her, giving her that move, allowing her to change the subject because he knew she needed it. Then he asked, “Where are they?”
She looked to the side, murmuring, “Coffee table.”
He looked that way, spotting the box. Then he knifed up, taking her with him, arranging her on his lap. He leaned forward and reached out an arm. He pulled more than one out, leaned back and handed them to her.
Delicately, like she was wiping her face and blowing her nose in front of the Queen of England, she took care of business. When she was done, she looked around self-consciously, obviously not sure what to do with her used tissues, this reminding him that pretty much all the time she was totally fucking cute.
He took them from her and she bit her lip as she watched him throw them on the coffee table.
She stopped biting her lip when he lifted both hands to frame her face and her eyes came to his.
“You good?” he asked.
“That was unpleasant,” she said by way of answer.
“It was, Slick. But you good?”
“I’ve no idea what my future will bring, primarily employment, and it will be quite devastating to lose Henry, which after that scene it seems I will. But regardless, he means something to me,” she stated.
After that bullshit in the foyer, Jake didn’t agree. Then again, maybe if given time, she’d see it for the bullshit it was and come around to his way of thinking.
“So you’re saying you’re not good,” he guessed.
“No, Jake, I’m not good,” she confirmed then took a deep breath before going on. “What I am is in dire need of coffee and I’ve found a toothbrush still in its packaging. I’m not looking forward to football but I am looking forward to seeing your home and spending the day with you and your children so I’ll think about Henry tomorrow.”
He smiled at her, sliding his hands from her head so he can wrap his arms around her. “Good plan.”
“Since I’m down here, I’ll make coffee,” she offered.
“I’ll accept that,” he replied and tightened his arms around her, bringing her closer, his eyes dropping to her mouth. “After you kiss me.”
He saw her lips part before he watched them coming his way. He felt her hands glide up his arms and around his neck as he dropped his head to give her better access.
She took it, her mouth opening under his and she gave him her tongue.
The second he got it, he sucked it deeper.
When he did, she pressed closer.
Feeling that, he took over.
To do that best, he dropped her back to the couch and covered her.
This meant coffee was further delayed seeing as he liked her mouth, he’d waited a while to have it and he was in the mood to take his fill.
Josie was in a similar mood.
So they made out on her couch in her house, the couch that used to be Lydie’s in the house that Lydie had given her granddaughter.
It was a long time after they were done, when they’d had coffee, he’d made her eggs and toast and he was waiting not very patiently in the kitchen for Josie to get ready to take on the day, when he thought that Lydie would like that.
All of it.
And she’d like it a fuckuva lot.
Chapter Fourteen
I’d Give Him the World
I stood in Jake’s kitchen, my hips to the counter, Jake standing very close in front of me, his eyes holding mine, his hand wrapped around the side of my neck, my hand wrapped around my mobile which he’d slapped into my palm five seconds earlier and said one word, “Mick.”
I did realize that I had to call Mickey, of course. I hadn’t forgotten.
However, Jake behaved very patiently and his
Jake had then been more of his usual kind and wonderful, acting like we had all day to embrace (in other words snog, and very pleasantly) on the couch and after, making me a delicious breakfast of poached eggs on toast.
Jake’s patience clearly ran out after that and I knew this when I was swiping mascara on my eyelashes upstairs and I heard him bellow from downstairs, “How much longer, Slick?”
Yes.
Bellow.
Up the stairs!
It wasn’t like he was a stranger to my bedroom. He’d been in there even before we were lovers.
At his bellow, I took my mascara wand and tube with me and walked all the way to the landing, which was half a flight down.
There, I saw him at the bottom of the stairs.
“You ready?” he asked the instant he saw me.
“If you’d like to ask me a question, Jake, you are more than welcome to come to my room and ask it rather than shouting it up the stairs.”
His lips twitched and he stated, “I take it that means you’re not ready, you’re feelin’ in the mood to be uppity and tell me off and do it wastin’ time you could be using to finish getting ready.”
“Yes, indeed, I’m not ready but what I’m attempting to do right now is educate you about the fact I do not like to be bellowed at,” I informed him.
His lips twitched again before he replied, “Babe, got a voice, one I can turn up the volume on so there’s no reason for me to haul my ass up the stairs when I can shout up them.”
He seemed not to be listening to me, which I found mildly irritating.
Unfortunately, he was also rather handsome standing at the bottom of the stairs looking amused and I knew teasing me so that irritation was only mild.
He lowered his voice and his face got serious when he said, “Slick, gotta pick up Ethan at eleven and we gotta go to the arena to get your Cayenne before we do that. You need to get a move on.”
That was also mildly irritating, the fact that he was justified in his impatience.
“I’ll get a move on,” I assured him, turning to do just that but stopping when he called, “Babe.”
I looked down at him again.
“It will seriously not go unappreciated if you leave your hair down.”
For years, I’d arranged my hair in chignons, twists or ponytails. And for years, I had not been the kind of woman who did anything that a man asked me to do (unless that man was Henry but he was my employer).
However, when I returned upstairs to finish preparing for the day, outside of finger combing a fabulous elixir through my locks, I left my hair down.
And I was glad I did when I got the look Jake gave me as I descended the stairs.
I was even more glad when I got the kiss Jake gave me when I reached the bottom.
We got my Cayenne, Jake followed me home and I left it there and climbed in his truck. We then picked up Ethan and as we rode to Jake’s house Ethan informed us at length and in great detail about how “awesome” and “epic” and “unreal” Combat Raptor was.
While Ethan was rattling adorably on, I found that it was rather a surprise that the morning after Jake and my relationship changed so enormously, I was just as comfortable in his presence…and then some.
This was because gone was the yearning. Gone was the pretending.
This was not a dream.
It was real.
So, although I would have chosen not to have a surprise altercation with Henry in the foyer of Lavender House where he shared he’d been in love with me for twenty-three years yet did not one thing about it (it was at this juncture I decided I wanted to throw something at him), Jake was mine before it, during it and after it.
Thus, I could throw myself in his arms and cry into his neck and feel his hand stroking my hair and listen to his words attempting to soothe me.
And I did.
And I was delighted I could.
Because it felt beautiful to have someone close in a time of need who gave you precisely what you needed. Outside of Gran, I’d never had that.
Thinking on it, since the day after Gran’s funeral when I met Jake, I had it.
And now I knew he was marvelous in bed. I knew he was generous there. I knew he cared that he gave me pleasure before taking his own. I knew every inch of his body was beautiful for I’d seen them all and touched most of them. And I knew I very much enjoyed sleeping beside him and (maybe more) waking up there.
But this was the only change.
The rest of it was Jake and me.
In preparing for the day, I took that time to go over Jake’s behavior since practically the moment we met and I felt slightly foolish that I had not grasped that Jake and I had been dating thus there was a Jake and me.
But that didn’t change the fact that there was indeed a Jake and me. He liked it. I liked it.
Even so, it was not lost on me that there were some anxieties curling under the surface of my happiness.
The last man I’d chosen, the last one I’d let in, the one and only relationship I had outside of my high school boyfriend…
It didn’t bear thinking about.
But Jake was not him.
Nor was he my father.
Jake was gallant, protective, generous, selfless and tenderhearted.
And none of those were my father or…him.
So although I’d never attempted to have a relationship with a man, not for twenty-three years, and it was clear I was embarking on a relationship with Jake, and Jake was all things Jake (thus I didn’t want to lose any of them), those anxieties were curling under the surface.
Even so, I knew I had only to discuss them with Jake and from what he’d already given me, I had the strong suspicion he’d help me set those anxieties away.
And that felt beautiful too.
We went to his home and I was delighted to discover it was rather an old one, but one in very good condition, standing tall (three stories) and proud. Through some dense trees it even had a view of the sea.
I also discovered during the tour Ethan gave me that Jake had a good eye for decorating, which was rather shocking but not unwelcome. Of course this eye came with a mind to comfort but the colors and pieces he chose were excellent (albeit manly—so manly I feared Amber felt cast adrift in that masculine sanctum), the furniture very high quality and the fixtures and fittings handsome.
He could use some toss pillows to add a splash of color and his wall décor seemed rather slapdash but these were minor issues.
During the tour, I decided I had three favorite rooms in the house.
The kitchen, which was obviously built as an extension, with its exposed beams in a beautiful blonde wood that jutted under skylights so prevalent they appeared to be the entire ceiling, stark red cabinets, stainless steel appliances and black granite countertops.
Jake’s bedroom on the top floor, which had a masculine but extraordinary sleigh bed that was so enormous, at first glance it seemed to take up the entire room, and regardless of the fact that it was unmade, it was also extremely inviting. Not to mention its master bath which also had skylights, a very large shower with smooth stone flooring and three shower heads and an oval bath that had steps up so it was sunken and would be a giving-yourself-a-facial, pumicing-your-feet, soaking-your-cares-away woman’s dream.
And, last, his office, next to his bedroom, which was what had the view to the sea. It also had a fabulous antique desk and a seating area by the window consisting of comfortable chair with a table and lamp which I took one look at, longed to find a book and curl up there to read and, should my mind wander, gaze at the sea.
On the way back downstairs, Ethan announced, “Dad totally did all
I stared at the back of his head while we were descending.
“Pardon?”
He looked back at me grinning. “Place was a dump. Totally. Dad gutted it and fixed it up before we moved in. We got pictures. Wanna see?”
I absolutely did, so I nodded.
We got to the bottom of the stairs and Ethan ran off, presumably to get the photo albums.
This was when Jake claimed me, pulled me to the kitchen, pushed me into the counter, slapped my mobile into my hand and said, “Mick.”
I glared at him.
Then I remarked, “Ethan said Mickey helped you renovate your home.”
“Yep,” Jake replied. “Now call him,” Jake ordered.
I glared at him again before I announced, “I am quite capable of telephoning Mickey to cancel our date and doing it without you standing nary an inch away with your hand on my neck.”
“I know that, Slick,” he stated, his lips again quirking with amusement (although I found nothing humorous in our current scenario). “I also know Mick’s a good guy. He’s a bud. Known him a long time and my guess would be he’ll be cool with you because he’s that good of a guy. But another thing I know is that he was in the hall last night when I finished my fight, had showered and was probably on his way to the empty seat beside yours. So I figure he either saw you go into my locker room or he’s heard of it. So he feels like bein’ a dick, and gotta say, can’t blame him, then I’m here to tell him to go fuck himself because even if I can’t blame him, that shit is not going to happen.”
It was too mortifying to think that Mickey knew what had happened between Jake and me last night so I decided instead to focus on breaking this down.
“So you’re standing very close with your hand on me, demanding I phone Mickey while in your presence in order to be readily available should Mickey be unpleasant.”
“Hit the nail on the head,” he confirmed.
“You are aware I’m a grown woman,” I asked.
“Yep. I’m very aware of that,” he answered on a roguish grin that, even during our mildly irritating conversation, I found highly attractive. “I’m also aware that officially as of last night against a wall in a locker room, you became my woman and no man is a dick to my woman.”