Frost Like Night by Sara Raasch
“You’re never going to believe what’s happening!” she squeals.
I lower my chakram with a groan and scrub sleep from my eyes. “What’s happening? How long have I been asleep?”
But even as I ask that, I think, Not long enough.
“Since . . .” Nessa’s eyes drift upward as she thinks. “After midnight. It’s just past noon now, and everyone wanted to let you rest, but I knew you wouldn’t want to miss this!”
I twitch and lower my hands. It’s past noon?
Nessa’s face comes into focus, but my groggy confusion only intensifies when I see her outfit. Deep purple satin lined with gold trim curves around her body.
“I know we have to borrow things from Autumn, but this is a bit fancy, isn’t it?” I say.
Nessa spins to fluff the floor-length skirt around her sandals. “Isn’t it lovely? You should see Ceridwen! She looks like a sunset.”
I raise my brows. Nessa waves her hands.
“Oh, right, sorry!” She grabs my arm and yanks me out of bed, my chakram clanking to the floor, my tunic batting loosely at my knees. Only Nessa’s giddy smile stops me from protesting as she hauls me outside.
Conall peels away from the threshold of my tent and drops in behind us, having taken up his task of guarding me again since most of Mather’s Thaw left to escort our final refugee group. Where Nessa leads me isn’t very far down the road, and considering the number of people we pass, I’m grateful. The Winterian queen should be a bit more dignified than to traipse around in little more than a nightgown.
A burgundy tent stands unadorned but for thin stripes of navy that run vertically down its fabric. Conall posts himself outside along with two Autumnian guards, and when Nessa tugs me in, a cloud of rose water and incense greets us. The narrow room houses a few dressing screens, open trunks overflowing with jewel-toned satin and silk, and pillows on which lounge Dendera, Nikoletta, Shazi, Kaleo, and his daughter, Amelie.
When Nessa and I stumble in, Shazi screeches and Dendera leaps up.
“She’s here!”
That elicits a chirp from behind one of the dressing screens, and Ceridwen’s head shoots out so quickly I catch only a flash of gold and a few bouncing red curls. “Finally! Flame, I was beginning to think you’d sleep through it.”
“Through what?” I ask. Dendera holds a swath of blue satin up to my face just as a shoe flies out from behind Ceridwen’s dressing screen, and I start to think I must still be asleep. “You all realize we have a war to prepare for? Unless you think we can settle our differences by throwing Angra a ball—”
Dendera squeezes my shoulder. “We do realize we have a war to prepare for, which is exactly why this needs to happen.”
“What needs to happen?”
Ceridwen’s head reappears for longer this time. Her curls are pinned in a gold headdress with dangling leaves glinting near her cheeks, accenting the gold and brown paint that forms curlicues across her dark skin.
“A wedding,” she says, and the way the words come out on a giggle makes me smile. I don’t think I’ve ever heard her giggle. “My wedding. To Jesse.”
She ducks back behind the screen as Shazi tosses a length of orange silk into the air and squeals when it flows over her head.
“Your wedding?” I echo.
Dendera nods happily. “The latest reports put Angra’s forces five days out from being fully gathered. This”—she waves at the tent—“is necessary.”
But I know what she means. We need this. We need it as much as every blade we will sharpen, every ration we will pack, every breastplate we will strap on.
Every moment of peace we gather here will help us stay sane later on.
I take the satin from Dendera. “I guess I should dress up too?”
She smiles and waves me behind another screen. “I’ll help. Nessa?”
Nessa rushes to join us. The moment we’re behind the screen, they both tug off my gray tunic and start wrapping blue satin in a pattern they must have learned from Nikoletta.
This is what Ceridwen meant a few days ago when she said she needed to follow her own advice. I know very little about her relationship with Jesse, beyond its scandalous beginning, but I do know she’s loved him for a long time. And though a lot of horrible things have come from this war, if it forced them to move beyond their issues and reconcile their love . . . well.
I can think of no better counter to war than a wedding.
Dendera and Nessa finish with me in about half an hour, and when I shuffle out, Nikoletta and Shazi are gone, leaving only Kaleo, stretched out on a pillow, smiling lazily at Ceridwen’s screen.
“Are you ready yet?” he calls.
“Art can’t be rushed, Papa,” comes Amelie’s reprimand from behind the screen.
“You aren’t the one marrying a Ventrallan—you don’t have to talk like that.”
Which comes just as Lekan ducks into the tent. He eyes Kaleo, then Amelie, who pops her head out and blows him a kiss. Lekan gives Kaleo a grin as he drops beside his husband.
“Already talking of marrying her off?” Lekan jokes.
Amelie giggles. “To a Ventrallan!”
She makes a gagging noise behind the screen, and Ceridwen laughs.
“Thank you for your support, Amelie. I must say, though—this is art, no matter what kingdom you’re from.”
The screen shifts, one panel folding back under Amelie’s hand, and she bounces out, the smile in her eyes overshadowing the branded S on her left cheekbone.
“May I present—Princess Ceridwen!” She swings her hand out in an elaborate bow, her black hair dipping around her face as she pivots to make a small presentation area.
Ceridwen pops her hands onto her hips, the smile on her face causing ripples in the gold paint that swirls all the way down to her collarbone. Every strand of her hair shines scarlet, and Nessa is right—she does look like a sunset, her dark skin the hue of tan-brown hills in encroaching night, her hair the final trails of bleeding sunrays.
But her outfit completes the vision. Interlacing sections of scarlet silk fold over a sleeveless bodice and hem that glitter with gold beads.
“What do you think?” Ceridwen runs her hand across the beads. “Art, right?”
She sounds uncertain, as if she’s afraid maybe it isn’t enough to marry the monarch of the kingdom known for art.
I step forward as Nessa and Dendera whisper soft assurances, and when I take Ceridwen’s hands, I see the same swirling gold designs fluttering down her arms.
“You’re perfect,” I tell her.
“Perfect,” she echoes with a roll of her eyes. “Far from it. Dead sexy, though, yes.”
Amelie giggles, rocking back. And, as if sensing Ceridwen’s finishing touches, the tent flaps part to reveal Nikoletta again, now in her own properly fancy outfit—layers of orange and teal overlapping in a weave of brightness.
She grins. “We’re ready to start if you are.”
Ceridwen pulls out of my hands and sucks in a breath. But when I look at her, she doesn’t appear nervous or hesitant or anything but deliriously happy.
The suddenness of the ceremony means most of the camp is still busy with war preparations. As Nikoletta leads us through the dim streets, soldiers trot past, and people pound out weapons on anvils. And here we are, a cluster of royals dressed in glittering Autumnian finery, strolling through a war camp. Where did they even get these outfits? I can’t imagine anyone thought to grab them in their rush to leave Oktuber. Could they be from Nikoletta’s own wardrobe? I lift the hem higher off the dusty road regardless.
Nikoletta leads us deeper into the forest camp, snaking through patches of trees and wider blocks of tents. The Klaryns’ foothills loom even higher, their sharp, spindly blackness stretching over us all.
At an intersection, Nikoletta turns to us.
“We’ve set up the ceremony site just beyond there.” She nods around the corner. “Jesse is waiting in the middle of the group with Caspar. It’s tradition
Ceridwen shakes her hands in front of her face. “Stop! Burn it all, I’m crying already.”
Nikoletta turns to the rest of us. “Follow me, please. We have a wedding to witness.”
As everyone trails Nikoletta around the corner, I linger, my eyes on Ceridwen. She notices me next to her, and when her brow lifts, I put my hand on her arm.
“I’m glad you’re happy, Cerie.”
She laughs. “Me too. You have no idea how glad I am to be happy.”
I squeeze her arm and back up a step.
“But . . . thank you,” she adds.
The tears in her eyes are far too contagious. “Just don’t trip,” I call as I jog away.
“You’re evil!”
But she’s out of sight, and the only thing I see now is the ceremony set up at the end of this road, the rising foothills of the Klaryns capping the scene not far off. The tents stop after only a few paces, the path becoming a tunnel of lush green grass and rows of trees. Leaves flutter in slow spirals of orange and red and brown, and at the end, a small clearing opens. The ground is carpeted by still more leaves, an aromatic blanket that makes the area smell of long-asleep plants. People stand in a loose cluster, all facing the opposite direction from us, and Jesse’s and Caspar’s heads peek over the crowd. Musicians wait in a silent group on the edge, instruments poised to start playing at Ceridwen’s arrival.
Leaves crunch under my slippers as I enter the clearing, and a few heads pivot to see who it is. But the musicians remain silent, so most people stay facing ahead. Ceridwen’s friends Lekan, Kaleo, and Amelie stand with Jesse’s children; an Autumnian maid holds a rare quiet Shazi; and my Winterians stand off to the right, each dressed in borrowed Autumnian finery, some as small as a satin sash over their regular clothes, others as elaborate as the head-to-toe outfit I’m in.
Nessa waves to me from where she stands with Dendera and Conall, and I go to her, drawn more by the person beside her, the one whose eyes widen at the sight of me. Mather wears a tunic so dark blue that it’s nearly black. Gold thread creates elaborate patterns around the high collar and wrists, and the tight cut of it hugs close to his arms and chest. A few strands of hair hang around his face, the rest knotted in a ribbon.
I stop next to him. “Hi,” I whisper.
His lips part. “Hi,” he whispers back. His eyes sweep over my outfit, and he fingers the silver beads woven into fabric that drapes over my arms, a sort of shawl, the swift gust of movement toward me enough to send my heart launching up into my throat.
“You’re beautiful,” he adds.
My head goes dizzy. This is what I get, though, for letting myself admit to my feelings for him—incapacitating giddiness that makes me sure I’m smiling just as dreamily as Ceridwen was moments ago.
I want to pull some sense of control over myself, compose my features so I’m not quite so . . . off-balance? I can’t think of the right word. I can’t think of anything, actually, as Mather’s eyes stay on mine. Suddenly he seems just as off-balance as I am.
When the musicians start to play, what was already a perfect moment becomes even more idyllic. The clearing fills with a violin’s rising hum, and as one the crowd turns.
I don’t look over my shoulder, though. My eyes go to Jesse and Caspar, standing with arms clasped behind their backs at the head of the group, their eyes, like everyone else’s, on Ceridwen. Jesse’s tunic is sleeveless, the same deep red as Ceridwen’s outfit. He wears a mask, this one crafted from red fabric, simple and unadorned.
But not even a full mask could hide the awe that soars across his face when he sees her.
His shoulders droop. His hands fall limp against his sides. The tense lines around his eyes smooth away. His dazed amazement is full of such pure love that I smile, because there’s no other possible response.
Mather links one of his fingers with mine.
I can’t draw a full breath, not as the instruments weave their bittersweet song, not as I look up at Mather and see the exact same look on his face. Dazed, with maybe just the slightest bit of fear. Seeing that flash of fear speaks to my own, and I think one unbearable thought.
I want this.
The song rises in volume as Ceridwen gets closer to Caspar and Jesse. She meanders through the crowd as Nikoletta instructed. When she steps free, Jesse lets out a choked breath and snatches her hands as if she were one of the leaves spiraling haphazardly through the air, uncatchable and chaotic and beautiful.
The song ebbs, leaving the clearing so still the wind practically roars. Caspar’s dark eyes shift from Ceridwen to Jesse and back, his lips unfurling in the same smile we’re all wearing.
“Ceridwen Preben, princess of Summer, and Jesse Donati, king of Ventralli, have asked that we witness them unite in the strongest bond of all,” Caspar begins, raising his voice over the crowd. “We live in a time of great pain and fear. The only way to truly defeat that pain is to feel equally great joy in the face of it, and this”—Caspar smiles—“is undeniable joy.”
He pulls a few items out of his pocket, holding them up for the crowd to see. A jar of black paint and a thick brush.
“In Autumn, marriages are celebrated as the rings of trees, each ring growing with time and dedication to create a union of just as much strength. Jesse.” Caspar hands him the brush and uncorks the jar. “The first ring.”
Jesse takes the brush and dips it into the paint. Hand steady, he paints a thick black ring around Ceridwen’s upper arm.
“Ceridwen,” Caspar continues, holding the jar out to her. “The first ring.”
She takes the brush from Jesse, gathers up paint, and leans over his arm. Her line is less steady, her hand shaking, but the way Jesse watches her, it’s clear neither of them cares.
When she finishes, Caspar takes the brush and steps back from them. “You are now one ring, one tree. Whatever the world presents, you will meet it together. Ceridwen and Jesse.” Caspar’s voice drops out of formality and into joviality. “Congratulations.”
He waves his arms, presenting the newlyweds to the crowd, and everyone breaks into applause as the musicians begin to play a faster melody. Ceridwen and Jesse leap at each other, practically toppling to the ground as they kiss.
Magic trickles out of me, calling the leaves on the ground to spin in a gentle spiral around Ceridwen and Jesse. They pull apart to gape at the swirl of color, but it only encourages their happiness and they dissolve against each other.
“No wedding is complete without a feast!” Nikoletta calls through the din. “Join us tonight.”
Cheers rise up and the crowd starts to steadily move out of the clearing, trailing Nikoletta to whatever feast they arranged. The current pulls Mather away, but Nessa catches me, her arm linking through mine.
“That was perfect!” she exclaims. “I want an Autumnian wedding one day.”
I laugh. “What about a Winterian wedding?”
Nessa smiles, dreamy. “Maybe I just want a wedding. Or, not so much a wedding as—”
She looks back at Ceridwen and Jesse, now whispering to each other as the crowd no longer watches them. They look even happier, if that’s possible—their foreheads together, him stroking his fingers through her hair.
“That,” Nessa says. “I want that.”
I lean against her. “Me too.”
A few hours later, the clearing in front of the main tent is just as beautiful, if not more so, than the ceremony site.
The evening light cuts through the trees, casting the camp into the hooded shadow of approaching night. A few of the tents have been removed to make room for tables and a crackling fire in the center of the area. Strands of braided fabric are tethered around the perimeter, creating a decorative foundation from which hang lanterns, golden glows flickering in the breeze. The musicians reposition themselves on the edge and start in on an upb
Conall, Nessa, and I stand on the edge of the clearing, watching the guests gather. A few begin dancing, and Nessa grabs Conall’s hand. “Dance with me!”
He throws her a skeptical stare. “What?”
“Dance!” She tugs him toward the fire, the flames casting an orange glow on those already dancing.
Conall’s eyes dart to me, back to Nessa, and he lowers his voice. “Not now, Ness.”
Her face falls. “Please,” she adds. “Please, Conall. We need this. He was my brother too.”
Conall angles his shoulders as if to block the conversation from reaching me. “Nessa,” he hisses. “This isn’t appropriate—”
“Conall,” I stop him. “She’s right. You deserve to be happy.”
Conall’s expression falls. “All right, my queen,” he says, and I hold back my annoyance at my title still on his lips. If that’s what it takes to get him to accept Nessa’s prodding, I won’t fight him.
He lets Nessa drag him over to the dancers. She holds his arms out and tries to move to the rhythm, which urges the barest smile onto his face.
Sometime during all this, Ceridwen and Jesse sneak in, and they whirl past Nessa and Conall in their own frenzied dance. Kicks and twirls that fluff their clothing, the beat of the song picking up and coaxing everyone’s intensity higher. I can’t help but laugh at it all, the hodgepodge of colors around the licking flames, the steady ebbing of the guitar and violin and now a few bowl-shaped drums that send beats ricocheting around the clearing.
Someone appears next to me, their presence heavy, and I know who it is without needing to look.
“What did you think of the ceremony?” I ask, my eyes shifting to Sir.
He crosses his arms, his attention on the dancing. I almost expect him not to respond, or to start talking of war strategies, but some of the tension in his shoulders eases.
“I think Winterian weddings are more beautiful,” he says.
I can’t stop the way my eyes widen. The heat from the fire and the dancing bodies makes sweat break across my brow, and all of it goes ice cold beneath the glassiness in Sir’s eyes.