The Lions of Al-Rassan by Guy Gavriel Kay
The deaths of his men enraged him beyond any words.
He went forward to meet these three alone, to slake rage with retribution, grief with hard and deadly movement. He did know who had died, behind him in the square, saving his life. Rage, a great grief. He moved to face the assassins.
Others were there before him.
An entirely naked man, with something trailing along the ground from his waist, had seized the sword of one of the fallen Muwardis. He was already engaging the first of the new ones. From the other side, the spectacle of a peacock wielding a shepherd’s crook presented itself. Even as Rodrigo ran forward he saw the peacock bring that crook down from behind upon the head of one of the Muwardis. The desert warrior crumpled like a child’s soft toy. The peacock scarcely hesitated: he brought the staff savagely down again on the fallen man’s skull.
The naked man—and now Rodrigo realized it was Alvar de Pellino, and that the trailing object was not, in fact, tied to his waist—faced his Muwardi, crashing straight into him, screaming at the top of his voice as he drove the man back. He began dealing and receiving swordstrokes, heedless of his naked vulnerability. Rodrigo, sprinting past them towards the last man, gave Alvar’s foe a quick slash to the back of the calf. This was battle, not courtly display. The man made a high-pitched sound, fell, and Alvar killed him with a stroke.
The last man was Rodrigo’s.
Again he was brave, no hint of surrender or flight. Again he was skilled with his sword, defiant in his aggression, seeing the man he had come here to kill standing alone before him. None of these things extended his tenure on life under the blue moon or the torches or the stars he worshipped. Belmonte was enraged, and his fury was always cold and controlling in battle. The sixth Muwardi fell to a heavy, driving, backhand stroke to his collarbone—very much, in fact, like the blow that had killed the man with the staff.
It was over. As so many such battles had ended through the years—seemingly as swiftly as it had begun. He had an extreme facility for combat such as this. It defined him, this skill, in the eyes of the world in which he lived. In which he still lived, though he should have died tonight.
Rodrigo turned, breathing rapidly, and looked towards Alvar and the peacock, who turned out, improbably, to be Husari. Ibn Musa had torn off his mask and stood, white-faced, over the body of the man he’d just clubbed to death. First killing. A new thing for him.
Alvar, in the stillness after combat, seemed to become aware of his condition—and his sole item of golden adornment. In any other circumstance at all Rodrigo would have laughed in delight.
There was no laughter in him. In any of them. A number of the other men of the company were hurrying up. One of them, without comment, threw Alvar his own cloak. Alvar wrapped himself in it and untied the leash.
“You are all right?”
It was Martín, speaking to Rodrigo, eyeing him closely.
Belmonte nodded. “Nothing to speak of.”
He said no more, walking past them all, six dead Muwardis and the men of his company and the milling, frightened people in the square.
He came to where Laín Nunez crouched beside the small figure that lay breathing shallowly on the stones, his life seeping away from the deep wound in his throat. Laín had folded his cloak as a pillow for the fallen man. Ludus had seized a torch and was holding it above them. Someone else brought up another light.
Rodrigo took one glance, and then had to close his eyes for a moment. He had seen this many times; it ought to have become easier by now. It never had. Not with people you knew. He knelt on the blood-soaked stones and gently slipped off the token eye-mask the little man had worn as a concession to the rites of Ragosa’s Carnival.
“Velaz,” he said.
And found he couldn’t say anything more. This was not—it was so profoundly not—the proper ending for such a man as this. He ought not to be dying here, with a knife in his chest and this hideous, pouring wound. The wrongness of it was appalling.
“They . . . dead?” The dying man’s eyes were open; fierce, clear, fighting pain.
“All of them. You saved my life. What words can I say to you?”
Velaz swallowed, tried to speak again, then had to wait as a hard high wave of pain crashed over him.
“Care . . . her,” he whispered. “Please?”
Rodrigo felt sorrow threaten to overwhelm him. This oldest, endless sorrow of mankind, and new every single time. Of course this would be what Velaz of Fezana needed to ask before he died. How did the world in which they lived cause such things as this to happen? Why hadn’t Laín, or Ludus, Martín . . . any of a dozen soldiers . . . been nearest when Rodrigo fell to the ground among enemies? Any one of so many men who would have been bitterly mourned, but whose death in this fashion could have been seen as something embedded—a known and courted risk—in the life they had chosen?
“We will take care of her,” he said quietly. “On my oath. She will be cherished, as you cherished her.”
Velaz nodded his head, satisfied. Even that small movement caused a pumping of blood in his terrible wound.
He closed his eyes again. There was no color in his face at all. He said, eyes still closed, “Can . . . find?”
And this, too, Rodrigo understood. “I will. I’ll find her for you.”
He rose then, and strode away, blood soaking his clothes, moving swiftly, purposefully, to try to do a thing that was, in fact, beyond him or any man that night: to find a single, masked woman in the careening dark of Carnival.
Which is why he was not in the square, but hammering at the door of her house and then doubling back through the streets, shouting her name at the top of his voice in a world of noise and laughter, when first Ammar and then Jehane herself came running up, fearing to find Rodrigo dead, only to discover it was Velaz lying on the stones under torches held by silent soldiers.
Jehane had never realized how much affection had been won from a company of Valledan soldiers by the little man who had served her father and then herself all these years. It ought not, perhaps, to have been such a surprise. Military men recognized competence and inner strength and loyalty, and Velaz had embodied these things.
Alvar, in particular, was taking this death very badly, almost blaming himself for it. It appeared that he had been the second man to arrive when Rodrigo was attacked. Jehane didn’t know where he’d come from, but she gathered he’d been with a woman not far away.
Her thinking wasn’t really very clear. The night was nearly done. The thin crescent of the white moon was overhead now, but there already appeared to be a hint of grey through the open windows facing east. They were in the barracks, the dining room on the ground floor. The streets seemed quieter now, but that may have been an illusion, behind these walls. Jehane wanted to tell Alvar there was nothing inappropriate about having been with a woman at Carnival, but she couldn’t seem to be able to manage any words yet.
Someone—Husari, she thought—had brought her a cup of something warm. She gripped it in both hands, shivering. Someone else had draped a cloak over her. Another cloak lay over Velaz, on one of the tables not far away. A third covered the soldier who had died in the doorway when the Muwardis burst in. The door had been unlocked. It seemed he had been watching the dancing in the square.
She had been crying, off and on, for a long time. She felt numb, hollow, light-headed. Very cold, even beneath the cloak. In her mind she tried to begin a letter to her mother and father . . . and then stopped. The process of forming those necessary words threatened to make her weep again.
He had been a part of the world all her life; if not at the very center, then never far away. He had not ever, as best she knew, done a violent or a hurtful thing to any man or woman until tonight when he had attacked a Muwardi warrior and saved Rodrigo’s life.
That made her remember, much too late, something else. She looked over and saw that Rodrigo’s wounds were being cleaned and dressed by Laín Nunez. I ought to be doing that, a part of her said inward
She realized that Ammar had come up and was crouched on his heels beside her. She also realized, belatedly, that it was his cloak she was wearing. He looked at her searchingly, then took her hand, not speaking. How to comprehend that this same night they had kissed? And he had said certain things that opened up new horizons in the world.
Then the king of Cartada.
Then Velaz on the cobblestones.
She had not told anyone about Almalik. A man she loved was here—she could use that word now in her mind, admit it to herself—and that part of this night’s dark spinning was his to tell, or to preserve in silence.
She had heard enough from the balcony to understand a little of what lay between Ammar and the young, frightened king of Cartada. The king who had nonetheless been calculating enough to send killers from the desert after Rodrigo Belmonte. He had also ordered the execution of the warrior who’d thrown a blade at Ammar. There was something complex and hurtful here.
She could not seek her vengeance for Velaz by setting these men on the track of the Cartadan king. It was Rodrigo he had tried to kill, and mercenary soldiers, passing back and forth across the tagra lands and the boundaries of Jad and Ashar, lived lives that made that likely, even probable.
Velaz had not. Velaz ben Ishak—he had taken her father’s name when he adopted the Kindath faith—had lived a life that ought to have ended in a kind and cared-for old age. Not on a table in a barracks hall with that sword wound in his neck.
It occurred to Jehane then—in the dreamy way thoughts were coming—that she, too, had decisions to make in the days that lay ahead. The divided loyalties were not only Ammar’s or Rodrigo’s. She was physician to a band of Valledan mercenaries and to the court of Ragosa. She was also a citizen of Fezana, in Cartadan lands. Her home was there and her family. It was her own king, in fact, who was riding away from these walls tonight, with one companion only on a dangerous journey home. The man he had ordered killed was a Valledan, a Jaddite enemy, the Scourge of Al-Rassan.
A man who might, through his valor and his company’s, achieve the conquest of her own city if he were to rejoin King Ramiro and the assault upon Fezana became a reality. The Jaddites of Esperaña had burned the Kindath, or enslaved them. The island tomb of Queen Vasca remained a place of holiest pilgrimage.
Ammar was holding her hand. Husari came back. His eyes were red-rimmed. She lifted her free hand and he took it in his. Good men all around her in this room; decent, caring men. But the most decent, the most caring, the one who had loved her from the day she was born, was dead on a table under a soldier’s cloak.
Somewhere within her grieving soul Jehane experienced a tremor then, an apprehension of pain to come. The world of Esperaña, of Al-Rassan, seemed to her to be rushing headlong towards something vast and terrible, and the deaths of Velaz and of Rodrigo’s man at the barracks door, and even of seven desert warriors tonight—all these were merely prelude to much worse to come.
She looked around the large room and by the light of the torches saw men she liked and admired, and some she loved, and she wondered—in the strange, hollowed-out mood she had passed into—how many of them would live to see the next Ragosa Carnival.
Or if there would be another one a year from now.
Rodrigo came over, shirtless, a neat, efficient bandage covering his most serious wound. His upper body and arms were hard and muscled, laced with scars. One more now, when this healed. She would have a look at it later in the day. Work was sometimes the only barrier there was between life and the emptiness beyond.
His expression was strange. She hadn’t seen him look this way since . . . since the night she’d met him and they had watched a hamlet burn north of Fezana. There was that same anger now, and a kind of hurt that didn’t sort easily with his profession. Or perhaps that wasn’t true: perhaps Rodrigo was good at what he did because he knew the price exacted by the deeds of soldiers at war?
Odd, how her mind was drifting. Questions for which there were no answers. Much like death. The emptiness. The physician’s implacable adversary. A sword wound deep into the collarbone. There was no answer for that.
She said, clearing her throat, “Did he clean it . . . before he put the dressing on?”
Belmonte nodded. “With a whole flask of wine. Didn’t you hear me?”
She shook her head. “It looks like a proper dressing.”
“Laín’s been doing this for years.”
“I know.”
There was a little silence. He knelt in front of her, beside Ammar. “His last words to me were to ask that we take care of you. Jehane, I swore that we would.”
She bit her lip. Said, “I thought I’d been hired to take care of all of you.”
“It goes both ways, my dear.” That was Husari. Ammar said nothing, only watched. His fingers were cool, holding hers.
Rodrigo looked at him, registering the linked hands, and said, “Muwardi assassins suggests Cartada.” He stood up.
“I would think so,” Ammar said. “In fact, I know it was. There was an emissary who found me, as well. A different kind of mission.”
Rodrigo nodded slowly. “He wants you back?”
“He does.”
“We assumed that, didn’t we?”
“I think Almalik wanted to make certain I knew it.”
“What was the offer?”
“All the things one might expect.” The tone was cool.
Rodrigo registered that, too. “My apologies. I ought not to have asked.”
“Perhaps. But you did. Ask the next question?” Ammar released her hand. He rose to his feet.
The two men gazed at each other, grey eyes and blue. Rodrigo nodded his head, as if accepting a challenge. “Very well. What did you tell them?”
“That I didn’t know my answer, whether I would return or not.”
“I see. Was that true?”
“At the time.”
A silence. “Not so long ago, if it was tonight.”
“It was. Some things have intervened.”
“I see. And what would you answer if the same question were asked of you now?”
A small, deliberate hesitation. “That I am well content with the company in which I find myself.” There was a nuance there, Jehane realized. A moment later she saw that Rodrigo had also caught it.
He gestured around the room. “We are that company?”
Ibn Khairan inclined his head. “A part of it.” The two men were of a height; the Valledan was broader across the shoulders and chest.
“I see.”
“And you?” Ammar asked, and now Jehane understood why he had permitted—even invited—the questions. “Where will the men of Rod-rigo Belmonte be serving this summer?”
“We ride against Cartada soon. With the army of Ragosa.”
“And if King Ramiro should also be riding? Against Fezana’s walls? What then, O Scourge of Al-Rassan? Will we lose you? Will we live to fear the sight of your banner again?”
Some of the company had come over and were listening. It was quiet in the room and there was, indeed, light coming in from the east. Sunrise soon.
Rodrigo was silent a long while. Then, “I, too, am well content with where I find myself.”
“But?”
The anger in Belmonte’s eyes was gone. The other thing was still there. “But if the armies of Esperaña come through the tagra lands, I think I must go to them.”
Jehane let out her breath. She hadn’t been aware that she’d been holding it.
“Of course you must,” Ammar said. “You have lived your life for this.”
Rodrigo looked away for the first time and then back. “What do you want me to say?”
Ammar’s tone was suddenly hard, merciless, “Oh, well . . . how about, ‘Die, Asharite dogs! Kindath swine!’ Something of that sort?”
There was a sound from the soldiers. Rodrigo winced and shook his head. “Not from me, Ammar. Not from thos
“And from those who will ride all around you?”
Rodrigo shook his head again, almost doggedly. “Again, what can I say to you? They will be much as the Muwardis are, I suppose. Driven by hatred and holiness.” He made a curious gesture, both hands opening and then closing again. “You tell me. What shall good men do in such a war, Ammar?”
Ammar’s answer came, as Jehane had feared and known it would: “Kill each other, until something ends in the world.”
Alvar and Husari took her home as the sun was rising over the strewn and empty streets. They all needed sleep very badly. Alvar took his old room on the ground level, the one he’d used when she and he and Velaz had first come through the pass to Ragosa. Husari took Velaz’s bed beside the chamber where Jehane saw her patients.
She bade them good night, though the night was done. She went up the stairs to her room. She opened the window and stood there watching the eastern sky grow brighter beyond the roofs of houses.
It was going to be a beautiful morning. The dawn wind brought the scent of almond trees from the garden across the way. It was quiet now. The streets were empty. Velaz would not see this morning come.
She tried, again, to think how she could tell this to her mother and father, and again backed away from that. She thought of something else: it would be necessary to arrange for burial, a Kindath service. Avren would help. Perhaps she would ask him to do this? Find someone to chant the ancient words of the liturgy: One sun for the god. Two moons for his beloved sisters. Uncountable, stars to shine in the night. Oh, man and woman, born to a dark path, only look up and the lights shall guide you home.
She cried again, the tears spilling down her cheeks, falling on the windowsill.
After a time she wiped her face with the backs of her hands and lay down on the bed, not bothering to undress, though there was blood on her clothing. The tears had stopped. An emptiness, pushing outwards from her heart, took their place. She lay there but could not sleep.
A little later she heard the sound from outside. She had been waiting for that sound.