Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte

  Not, however, to go to bed; on the contrary, I began and dressed myself carefully. The sounds I had heard after the scream, and the words that had been uttered, had probably been heard only by me; for they had proceeded from the room above mine; but they assured me that it was not a servant's dream which had thus struck horror through the house; and that the explanation Mr. Rochester had given was merely an invention framed to pacify his guests. I dressed, then, to be ready for emergencies. When dressed, I sat a long time by the window, looking out over the silent grounds and silvered fields, and waiting for I know not what. It seemed to me that some event must follow the strange cry, struggle, and call.

  No; stillness returned; each murmur and movement ceased gradually, and, in about an hour, Thornfield Hall was again as hushed as a desert. It seemed that sleep and night had resumed their empire. Meantime the moon declined; she was about to set. Not liking to sit in the cold and darkness, I thought I would lie down on my bed, dressed as I was. I left the window, and moved with little noise across the carpet; as I stooped to take off my shoes, a cautious hand tapped low at the door.

  "Am I wanted?" I asked.

  "Are you up?" asked the voice I expected to hear, namely, my master's.

  "Yes, sir."

  "And dressed?"

  "Yes."

  "Come out, then, quietly."

  I obeyed. Mr. Rochester stood in the gallery, holding a light.

  "I want you," he said; "come this way; take your time, and make no noise."

  My slippers were thin; I could walk the matted floor as softly as a cat. He glided up the gallery and up the stairs, and stopped in the dark, low corridor of the fateful third story; I had followed, and stood at his side.

  "Have you a sponge in your room?" he asked in a whisper.

  "Yes, sir."

  "Have you any salts--volatile salts?"

  "Yes."

  "Go back and fetch both."

  I returned, sought the sponge on the washstand, the salts in my drawer, and once more retraced my steps. He still waited; he held the key in his hand; approaching one of the small black doors, he put it in the lock; he paused and addressed me again.

  "You don't turn sick at the sight of blood?"

  "I think I shall not; I have never been tried yet."

  I felt a thrill while I answered him; but no coldness, and no faintness.

  "Just give me your hand," he said; "it will not do to risk a fainting fit."

  I put my fingers into his. "Warm and steady," was his remark; he turned the key and opened the door.

  I saw a room I remembered to have seen before, the day Mrs. Fairfax showed me over the house; it was hung with tapestry; but the tapestry was now looped up in one part, and there was a door apparent, which had then been concealed. This door was open; a light shone out of the room within; I heard thence a snarling, snatching sound, almost like a dog quarreling. Mr. Rochester, putting down his candle, said to me, "Wait a minute," and he went forward to the inner apartment. A shout of laughter greeted his entrance, noisy at first, and terminating in Grace Poole's own goblin ha! ha! She, then, was there. He made some sort of arrangement, without speaking; though I heard a low voice address him, he came out and closed the door behind him.

  "Here, Jane!" he said; and I walked round to the other side of a large bed, which, with its drawn curtains, concealed a considerable portion of the chamber. An easy-chair was near the bed-head; a man sat in it, dressed, with the exception of his coat; he was still; his head leaned back; his eyes were closed. Mr. Rochester held the candle over him; I recognized in his pale and seemingly lifeless face--the stranger, Mason; I saw, too, that his linen on one side, and one arm, was almost soaked in blood.

  "Hold the candle," said Mr. Rochester, and I took it; he fetched a basin of water from the washstand; "hold that," said he. I obeyed. He took the sponge, dipped it in and moistened the corpse-like face; he asked for my smelling-bottle, and applied it to the nostrils. Mr. Mason shortly unclosed his eyes; he groaned. Mr. Rochester opened the shirt of the wounded man, whose arm and shoulder were bandaged; he sponged away blood, trickling fast down.

  "Is there immediate danger?" murmured Mr. Mason.

  "Pooh! No--a mere scratch. Don't be so overcome, man; bear up! I'll fetch a surgeon for you now, myself--you'll be able to be removed by morning, I hope. Jane--" he continued.

  "Sir?"

  "I shall have to leave you in this room with this gentleman for an hour, or, perhaps, two hours; you will sponge the blood as I do when it returns; if he feels faint, you will put the glass of water on that stand to his lips, and your salts to his nose. You will not speak to him on any pretext--and, Richard, it will be at the peril of your life you speak to her; open your lips--agitate yourself--and I'll not answer for the consequences."

  Again the poor man groaned; he looked as if he dared not move--fear, either of death or of something else, appeared almost to paralyze him. Mr. Rochester put the now bloody sponge into my hand, and I proceeded to use it as he had done. He watched me a second, then saying, "Remember!--no conversation," he left the room. I experienced a strange feeling as the key grated in the lock, and the sound of his retreating step ceased to be heard.

  Here then I was in the third story, fastened into one of its mysticfg cells--night around me--a pale and bloody spectacle under my eyes and hands--a murderess hardly separated from me by a single door; yes--that was appalling--the rest I could bear; but I shuddered at the thought of Grace Poole bursting out upon me.

  I must keep to my post, however. I must watch this ghastly countenance--these blue, still lips, forbidden to unclose--these eyes, now shut, now opening, now wandering through the room, now fixing on me, and ever glazed with the dulness of horror. I must dip my hand again and again in the basin of blood and water, and wipe away the trickling gore. I must see the light of the unsnuffed candle wane on my employment; the shadows darken on the wrought, antique tapestry round me, and grow black under the hangings of the vast old bed, and quiver strangely over the doors of a great cabinet opposite--whose front, divided into twelve panels, bore, in grim design the heads of the twelve apostles, each inclosed in its separate panel as in a frame; while above them at the top rose an ebon crucifix and a dying Christ.

  According as the shifting obscurity and flickering gleam hovered here or glanced there, it was now the bearded physician, Luke, that bent his brow; now St. John's long hair that waved; and anon the devilish face of Judas, that grew out of the panel and seemed gathering life and threatening a revelation of the arch-traitor--of Satan himself--in his subordinate form.

  Amid all this, I had to listen as well as watch--to listen for the movements of the wild beast or the fiend in yonder side den. But since Mr. Rochester's visit, it seemed spellbound; all the night I heard but three sounds, at three long intervals--a step, creak, a momentary renewal of the snarling, canine noise, and a deep human groan.

  Then my own thoughts worried me. What crime was this, that lived incarnate in this sequestered mansion, and could neither be expelled nor subdued by the owner? What mystery, that broke out, now in the fire and now in blood, at the deadest hours of night? What creature was it, that, masked in an ordinary woman's face and shape, uttered the voice, now of a mocking demon, and anon of a carrion-seeking bird of prey?

  And this man I bent over--this common-place, quiet stranger--how had he become involved in the web of horror? and why had the Fury flown at him? What made him seek this quarter of the house at an untimely season, when he should have been asleep in bed? I had heard Mr. Rochester assign him an apartment below--what brought him here? And why, now, was he so tame under the violence or treachery done him? Why did he so quietly submit to the concealment Mr. Rochester enforced? Why did Mr. Rochester enforce this concealment? His guest had been outraged, his own life on a former occasion had been hideously plotted against; and both attempts he smothered in secresy and sunk in oblivion! Lastly, I saw Mr. Mason was submissive to Mr. Rochester; that the impetuous will of the latter held com
plete sway over the inertness of the former; the few words which had passed between them assured me of this. It was evident that, in their former intercourse, the passive disposition of the one had been habitually influenced by the active energy of the other; whence, then, had arisen Mr. Rochester's dismay when he heard of Mr. Mason's arrival? Why had the mere name of this unresisting individual--whom his word now sufficed to control like a child--fallen on him, a few hours since, as a thunderbolt might fall on an oak?

  Oh! I could not forget his look and his paleness when he whispered, "Jane, I have got a blow--I have got a blow, Jane." I could not forget how the arm had trembled which he rested on my shoulder; and it was no light matter which could thus bow the resolute spirit and thrill the vigorous frame of Fairfax Rochester.

  "When will he come? When will he come?" I cried inwardly, as the night lingered and lingered--as my bleeding patient drooped, moaned, sickened; and neither day nor aid arrived. I had, again and again, held the water to Mason's white lips; again and again offered him the stimulating salts; my efforts seemed ineffectual; either bodily or mental suffering, or loss of blood, or all three combined, were fast prostrating his strength. He moaned so, and looked so weak, wild, and lost, I feared he was dying; and I might not even speak to him!

  The candle, wasted at last, went out; as it expired, I perceived streaks of gray light edging the window-curtains; dawn was then approaching. Presently I heard Pilot bark far below, out of his distant kennel in the court-yard; hope revived. Nor was it unwarranted; in five minutes more the grating key, the yielding lock, warned me my watch was relieved. It could not have lasted more than two hours; many a week has seemed shorter.

  Mr. Rochester entered, and with him the surgeon he had been to fetch.

  "Now, Carter, be on the alert," he said to this last; "I give you but half an hour for dressing the wound, fastening the bandages, getting the patient down stairs and all."

  "But is he fit to move, sir?"

  "No doubt of it; it is nothing serious; he is nervous, his spirits must be kept up. Come, set to work."

  Mr. Rochester drew back the thick curtain, drew up the Holland-blind, let in all the daylight he could; and I was surprised and cheered to see how far dawn was advanced; what rosy streaks were beginning to brighten the east. Then he approached Mason, whom the surgeon was already handling.

  "Now, my good fellow, how are you?" he asked.

  "She's done for me, I fear," was the faint reply.

  "Not a whit!--courage! This day fortnight you'll hardly be a pin the worse of it; you've lost a little blood, that's all. Carter, assure him there's no danger."

  "I can do that conscientiously," said Carter, who had now undone the bandages; "only I wish I could have got here sooner; he would not have bled so much--but how is this? The flesh on the shoulder is torn as well as cut! This wound was not done with a knife; there have been teeth here!"

  "She bit me," he murmured. "She worried me like a tigress, when Rochester got the knife from her."

  "You should not have yielded; you should have grappled with her at once," said Mr. Rochester.

  "But, under such circumstances, what could one do?" returned Mason. "Oh, it was frightful!" he added, shuddering. "And I did not expect it; she looked so quiet at first."

  "I warned you," was his friend's answer; "I said--be on your guard when you go near her. Besides, you might have waited till to-morrow and had me with you; it was mere folly to attempt the interview to-night, and alone."

  "I thought I could have done some good."

  "You thought! you thought! Yes, it makes me impatient to hear you; but, however, you have suffered, and are likely to suffer enough for not taking my advice; so I'll say no more. Carter--hurry! hurry! The sun will soon rise, and I must have him off."

  "Directly, sir; the shoulder is just bandaged. I must look to this other wound in the arm; she has had her teeth here, too, I think."

  "She has sucked the blood; she said she'd drain my heart," said Mason.

  I saw Mr. Rochester shudder. A singularly marked expression of disgust, horror, hatred, warped his countenance almost to distortion; but he only said--

  "Come, be silent, Richard; and never mind her gibberish; don't repeat it."

  "I wish I could forget it," was the answer.

  "You will when you are out of the country. When you get back to Spanish Town you may think of her as dead and buried--or rather, you need not think of her at all."

  "Impossible to forget this night!"

  "It is not impossible. Have some energy, man. You thought you were as dead as a herring two hours since, and you are all alive and talking now. There!--Carter has done with you, or nearly so. I'll make you decent in a trice. Jane (he turned to me for the first time since his reentrance), take this key; go down into my dressing-room; open the top drawer of the wardrobe and take out a clean shirt and neck-handkerchief; bring them here; and be nimble."

  I went; sought the repository he had mentioned, found the articles named, and returned with them.

  "Now," said he, "go to the other side of the bed while I order his toilet; but don't leave the room; you may be wanted again."

  I retired as directed.

  "Was anybody stirring below when you went down, Jane?" inquired Mr. Rochester, presently.

  "No, sir; all was very still."

  "We shall get you off cannily, Dick; and it will be better both for your sake, and for that of the poor creature in yonder. I have striven long to avoid exposure, and I should not like it to come at last. Here, Carter, help him on with his waistcoat. Where did you leave your furred cloak? You can't travel a mile without that, I know, in this d--d cold climate. In your room? Jane, run down to Mr. Mason's room, the one next mine, and fetch a cloak you will see there."

  Again I ran, and again returned, bearing an immense mantle, lined and edged with fur.

  "Now I've another errand for you," said my untiring master; "you must away to my room again. What a mercy you are shod with velvet, Jane!--a clod-hopping messenger would never do at this juncture. You must open the middle drawer of my toilet-table and take out a little phial and a little glass you will find there--quick!"

  I flew thither and back, bringing the desired vessels.

  "That's well! Now, doctor, I shall take the liberty of administering a dose myself; on my own responsibility. I got this cordial at Rome, of an Italian charlatan--a fellow you would have kicked, Carter. It is not a thing to be used indiscriminately, but it is good upon occasion, as now, for instance. Jane, a little water."

  He held out the tiny glass, and I half filled it from the water-bottle on the washstand.

  "That will do; now wet the lip of the phial."

  I did so; he measured twelve drops of a crimson liquid, and presented it to Mason.

  "Drink, Richard; it will give you the heart you lack, for an hour or so.

  "But will it hurt me? is it inflammatory?"

  "Drink! drink! drink!"

  Mr. Mason obeyed, because it was evidently useless to resist. He was dressed now; he still looked pale, but he was no longer gory and sullied. Mr. Rochester let him sit three minutes after he had swallowed the liquid; he then took his arm.

  "Now I am sure you can get on your feet," he said; "try."

  The patient rose.

  "Carter, take him under the other shoulder. Be of good cheer, Richard; step out; that's it!"

  "I do feel better," remarked Mr. Mason.

  "I am sure you do. Now, Jane, trip on before us away to the back stairs; unbolt the side-passage door, and tell the driver of the post-chaise you will see in the yard--or just outside, for I told him not to drive his rattling wheels over the pavement--to be ready; we are coming; and, Jane, if any one is about, come to the foot of the stairs and hem."

  It was by this time half-past five, and the sun was on the point of rising; but I found the kitchen still dark and silent. The side-passage door was fastened; I opened it with as little noise as possible; all the yard was quiet; but the gates stoo
d wide open, and there was a post-chaise, with horses ready harnessed, and driver seated on the box, stationed outside. I approached him, and said the gentlemen were coming; he nodded; then I looked carefully round and listened. The stillness of early morning slumbered everywhere; the curtains were yet drawn over the servants' chamber-windows; little birds were just twittering in the blossom-blanched orchard trees, whose boughs drooped like white garlands over the wall inclosing one side of the yard; the carriage-horses stamped from time to time in their closed stables: all else was still.

  The gentlemen now appeared. Mason, supported by Mr. Rochester and the surgeon, seemed to walk with tolerable ease; they assisted him into the chaise; Carter followed.

  "Take care of him," said Mr. Rochester to the latter, "and keep him at your house till he is quite well. I shall ride over in a day or two to see how he gets on. Richard, how is it with you?"

  "The fresh air revives me, Fairfax."

  "Leave the window open on his side, Carter; there is no wind--good-by, Dick."

  "Fairfax--"

  "Well, what is it?"

  "Let her be taken care of; let her be treated as tenderly as may be; let her--" He stopped and burst into tears.

  "I do my best; and have done it, and will do it," was the answer. He shut up the chaise door, and the vehicle drove away.

  "Yet would to God there was an end of all this!" added Mr. Rochester, as he closed and barred the heavy yard-gates. This done, he moved with slow step and abstracted air toward a door in the wall bordering the orchard. I, supposing he had done with me, prepared to return to the house; again, however, I heard him call "Jane!" He had opened the portal, and stood at it, waiting for me.

  "Come where there is some freshness, for a few moments," he said; "that house is a mere dungeon; don't you feel it so?"

  "It seems to me a splendid mansion, sir."

  "The glamourfh of inexperience is over your eyes," he answered; "and you see it through a charmed medium; you cannot discern that the gilding is slime and the silk draperies cobwebs; that the marble is sordid slate, and the polished woods mere refuse chips and scaly bark. Now here (he pointed to the leafy inclosure we had entered) all is real, sweet, and pure."